Joseph
Joseph was an extremely good person with a big good heart. He loved people and decided to organize a party. He prepared food, drinks, and music and sent invitations to the whole village.
When it was time for guests to come to Joseph's party in the evening. No one showed up.
Joseph waited patiently all evening, but no guests came to his party.
Only his fat cat came to the party, which would have come anyway.
Joseph did not allow himself to be distracted by this. He thought that maybe the guests got lost along the way so they couldn’t come.
The following week, Joseph again prepared everything for the party and sent out invitations to guests with exact instructions on how to reach him.
No one showed up.
Joseph noticed that it was raining outside. He thought the guests hadn't come because it was raining outside. Joseph decided to keep an eye on the weather forecast.
For the next few days, he paid close attention to the weather forecast.
The day came when the weather was perfectly beautiful and Joseph sent out invitations to the party and prepared everything needed for one top party.
No one showed up.
As usual, only his fat cat came.
Joseph set out to walk through the village in the fresh air.
The village was deserted and in the distance, he heard music playing in the village hall building.
As he approached the village hall, he heard people having fun inside.
He reached the entrance and wanted to go inside.
The guard stopped him and said there was no place for him at the party. Joseph asked the guards why this was so, why there was no place for him at the party. The guards did not know the answer to that question.
Joseph, a little sad, headed back home.
Suddenly he saw the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.
Joseph's heart began to beat fast as he watched her.
He was delighted with her beauty and grace.
He approached her and said, "My name is Joseph, it would be a great pleasure to get to know you better."
The woman replied shortly, "I'm in a hurry to the party."
And the woman went to the building where the party was.
Joseph looked after the beautiful woman, determined to get to know her better.
Tomorrow was Sunday and Joseph got ready for church.
During Mass, he saw a beautiful woman from last night. She was even more beautiful, she looked like an angel. After Mass, Joseph hurried out of the church to greet the beautiful woman.
When he approached her and said that he was Joseph and that they had met last night in front of the building where the party was.
The woman laughed sweetly and asked him what he wanted.
Joseph offered to escort her home.
Together they headed for her house.
Along the way, they joked and laughed.
They were both extremely comfortable in each other company.
When they reached her house, Joseph asked her, "Do you want to go for a walk with me tomorrow morning?"
Woman agreed.
Tomorrow morning they went for a walk.
It was a wonderful morning for both of them.
In the afternoon, Joseph came under her balcony and brought her flowers. He had written a song for her.
"You are my maiden I am your knight I want forever Defend your beauty"
In the weeks that followed, Joseph spent the most beautiful days of his life.
In the morning the two of them would walk, and in the afternoon Joseph would come in front of her balcony, enjoying her company.
One evening while with a bouquet, a chocolate candy bar, and a new song in his heart, he walked towards the balcony of his sweetheart.
Joseph was left petrified when he saw the scene on the balcony.
His beautiful maiden was kissing passionately another man on the balcony.
Joseph rubbed his eyes, but it didn't help.
He saw well.
Just as he moved closer to the balcony to ask her what it was all about.
The father of his maiden came out.
The father looked at Joseph with contempt in his eyes and said, "Get out of here! My daughter is marrying a rich merchant next week! You are nobody and nothing! I never want to see you near my daughter and house again!"
Joseph looked towards the balcony at his darling who heard everything.
She just looked at him coldly, turned her head, and entered the house with her merchant.
Joseph was devastated.
He couldn't believe what had happened to him.
He felt a pain in his stomach and could not eat or sleep.
He decided to organize a party. Maybe the fun will cheer him up.
He sent out invitations and prepared food, drinks, and music.
No one came to his party.
Not even his fat cat showed up at his party that night. Joseph went out into the fresh air, all sad.
As he approached the center of the village, he saw a huge party.
It was his maiden's wedding.
The whole village was at the party.
Joseph had had enough of everything.
He decided to change things.
At night, Joseph crept into the church and took off the holy diamond that stood above the altar in the church.
He went back to his house and took the necessary tools.
He climbed the highest hill above the village.
Joseph threw himself into the work.
He built the most beautiful throne in the world.
A throne is worthy of the king himself.
When he had finished his work, he began to shout at the top of his voice, "Oh, great and mighty Devil! I, Joseph, have built this most beautiful throne in the world just for you! I have brought you this holy diamond as a gift!"
Suddenly the sky darkened, and lightning and thunder began to strike in all directions.
In front of Joseph, the wicked himself was created, the Devil.
Devil asked Joseph, "What do you want, you poor thing? Why are you bothering me?"
Joseph told the Devil that he wanted to be his loyal servant.
Devil told Joseph that he already had enough loyal agents and why he would accept him into his service.
Joseph said, "O great and mighty Devil, I have built this throne on the most beautiful lookout in the world. From here you can sit comfortably and watch the world. And I have brought you this holy diamond."
Devil looked at Joseph, then at the truly beautiful throne.
Devil asked Joseph, "And why is there a hole in the seat on the throne?"
Joseph said, "Your Highness does not have to rise from the throne when you want to shit."
Devil thinks for a moment and realizes that there is a logic behind Joseph's design of the throne.
Devil hated it when he got hooked in the middle of an important meeting, so he would have to run to the toilet.
Devil has sat on the throne.
Devil was extremely pleased with the comfort of the throne, so he said, "All right, Joseph. Give me my holy diamond."
Joseph sets out to give the diamond to the Devil, but the diamond falls out of his hand and rolls under the throne.
Devil starts laughing at Joseph for being clumsy.
Joseph bent down for the diamond, which was right under the Devil's ass.
He takes out the scissors and quickly cuts off the Devil's balls.
Devil let out a cry that the whole earth shook.
Joseph grabbed the balls and diamond and fled.
Devil starts yelling, "Where are you, you cheater ?! The earth is going to eat you!"
Joseph was ten yards lower hidden behind a bush.
Suddenly, Joseph got up behind the bush and started crawling his tongue and mocking him.
Devil was so angry that steam began to come out of his ears.
He became redder than usual.
Devil turned around and tore off a stone from a nearby mountain and started throwing stones at Joseph.
Joseph ran down the hill as fast as his feet could carry him.
Behind him fell stones that the Devil threw at him.
When he came to the foot of the hill, Joseph began to shout, "You coward! You will never catch me! And I will make these eggs of yours on scrambled eggs and eat them!"
Devil was so angry that the strongest thunderstruck from the sky at the place where the Devil was.
Devil has disappeared.
Joseph went all happy in the middle of the village and began to shout: "Gather people! Gather people! Gather people, let me tell you the heroic deed I did!"
Little by little, the people began to gather.
When the whole village had gathered, Joseph told how he had cut off the balls of the Devil himself and showed balls to the people.
The people have been silent for a few moments.
So, you hear one of them say, "And that's why you called us? I cut my bull's balls last week, so I'm not bragging!" To this, another local said, "Don't they look like real balls to me ?!" A third resident answered and said, "You interrupted me from watching Santa Barbara because of that !?" Another local came forward and said he could get much better balls.
The people began to disperse to their homes, and Joseph was left alone.
Joseph realized that evening, that not only the Devil was left without balls.
Joseph went to return the holy diamond from the altar to the church and went into the night.
Tomorrow, the excited cries of the children break through the village.
The children shouted, "Come quickly, people! Stairs have formed up to the highest hill above our village!"
People gathered and went to see what it was all about.
When they reached the foot of the hill, they began to climb the stairs to the top of the hill.
Stairs that didn't exist before.
When they reached the top of the hill, they saw a beautiful cherry tree in bloom.
It was the most beautiful lookout point in the world.
The people returned to the village and gathered in the square.
The people concluded that Joseph was still telling the truth and that he had been misjudged.
They began to look for Joseph in the village. Joseph was nowhere to be seen.
They went to the house of Joseph, but the house was empty, and no one answered.
The locals decided to forcibly enter Joseph's house to search for him.
The house was empty. There was no sign or voice for Joseph. They found only a message written by Joseph.
"My dear When I'm gone You have drinks there in the house You also have great music in the house Bring your food Have fun In my memory."
The locals searched for Joseph for a few more days, and since they could not find him, they concluded that Joseph must have gone to another world.
The locals threw a party in Joseph's honor.
Joseph had left a great drink and very good music. And the food at the party was good too.
Afterward, everyone had a good time.
After the party, they went to their homes.
After a few days, no one remembered Joseph.
A couple of weeks passed and the men in the village started having nightmares. Every man in the village had the same nightmare. The devil personally comes to their dreams and laughs at them by saying, "You are not even half a man of Joseph!"
It torments and provokes them in different ways.
The men in the village felt bad.
None of them could get a good night's sleep.
Everyone gathered in the village square and held a meeting.
None of the men had a solution.
Suddenly the woman spoke. Women are otherwise known to be wiser and smarter than men.
One woman spoke on behalf of the other women's: "We as a village did not treat Joseph very well! With all this, Joseph did a heroic deed that no one ever did! Joseph deserved much more! Especially now that he is gone!"
The locals all agree that this is the case and decide to erect the largest monument to Joseph, a statue that can be built.
The locals began to build a statue of Joseph in the center of the village.
As the construction of the statue progressed, so did the nightmares to the men stop coming.
When they finished building the statue.
Everyone was thrilled at how magnificent the statue was.
Joseph stood proud and high.
He looked into the distance toward the sea and the sunset.
His left hand was above his eyes and cast a shadow. He held the Devil's balls in his right hand. And his smartphone was tucked behind his belt.
As the years went by.
The legend of Joseph grew.
New generations were coming, who were much smarter than the previous ones, and proudly said that the legend, the man, was from their village.
The man who cut off the Devil's balls.
Napomena: AI, zbog dužine priče nije u stanju analizirati sami kraj priče. Interesantno je kako zbog ovakvih trenutačnih ograničenja AI, može lako doći do gubitka poruke.
AI Analiza 1: Priča "Joseph" prati protagonistu koji organizira zabavu za selo, ali nitko se ne pojavi na zabavi osim njegove mačke. Joseph ne dopušta da ga to obeshrabri, nego pretpostavlja da su se gosti izgubili na putu, ili da je kiša bila razlog njihova izostanka. Kad se Joseph ponovno odluči organizirati zabavu i nitko se ne pojavi, odluči prošetati selom i čuje zabavu koja se održava u dvorani. Kad pokuša ući, stražar mu zabrani ulazak, ali Joseph kasnije susretne najljepšu ženu koju je ikad vidio i dogovore se za šetnju i druženje. Tjednima nakon toga, oni provode vrijeme zajedno, ali kad Joseph otkrije da ga vara s bogatim trgovcem, slomi mu se srce. Odluči organizirati zabavu za sebe i pozove cijelo selo, ali nitko ne dođe. Kada sazna da se njegova draga udaje za bogatog trgovca, odluči podići najljepši prijestolje u čast vraga i pokloni mu dragulj koji je ukraden iz crkve. Kao rezultat toga, sam vrag se pojavljuje ispred njega i Joseph mu daje dragulj.
Ova priča prikazuje kako Joseph ima veliko srce i spremnost za organiziranje zabave za selo, bez obzira na to što nitko ne dođe. Međutim, kasnije se dogodi situacija u kojoj njegova srce slomi i odlučuje učiniti nešto neuobičajeno da bi se osvetio svojoj bivšoj djevojci. Ova priča može se protumačiti kao da ukazuje na važnost samopouzdanja i prihvaćanja stvari onakvima kakve jesu, umjesto da se oslanjamo na druge ili na materijalne stvari kako bismo bili sretni.
AI Analiza 2: Priča "Joseph" je priča o čovjeku koji je imao dobro srce i želio organizirati zabavu za cijelo selo, ali nitko nije došao. Nakon neuspješnog pokušaja, on nije dopustio da ga to obeshrabi te je odlučio ponovno organizirati zabavu, no ni tada nitko nije došao. On je mislio da ljudi nisu došli jer je kiša padala pa je sljedećih dana pažljivo pratio vremensku prognozu. Nakon što je vidio da je vrijeme savršeno, poslao je pozivnice i pripremio sve potrebno za još jednu zabavu, ali nitko nije došao, osim njegove mačke. Nakon što je krenuo u šetnju, čuo je glazbu u seljačkom domu i otišao tamo, no čuvar mu nije dopustio da uđe. Nakon što je vidio najljepšu ženu koju je ikad vidio, pokušao ju je upoznati, ali ona je požurila na zabavu na koju je na kraju došao i vidio je kako je ta ista žena bila u vezi s drugim muškarcem. Kasnije je saznao da je taj muškarac bogati trgovac i da će se ona uskoro udati za njega. Nakon što je organizirao zabavu za sebe i nitko nije došao, odlučio je uzeti sveti dijamant iz crkve i sagraditi najljepši prijestol za đavla. Kada je završio, vikao je da ga pozove. Priča ukazuje na teme poput usamljenosti, ljubavi, zavisti i očajanja.
AI Analiza 3: Priča "Joseph" prikazuje život i odnose između ljudi kroz protagonistu Josepha, koji predstavlja čistu i dobru osobu s velikim srcem, koja se trudi organizirati zabavu i uživati u društvu drugih ljudi. Kroz njegovu nesebičnost i dobre namjere, vidimo kako čak i najbolje namjere mogu biti zanemarene ili neshvaćene, a da to ne ovisi samo o našoj vlastitoj volji i akcijama. Joseph je bio nesebičan i uvijek je mislio na dobrobit drugih, ali se suočio s odbacivanjem i izolacijom od ostatka zajednice.
Vjerujem da ste i sami primjetili kako je kontekst promijenjen. Napišite svoje razmišljanje o priči i Umjetnoj inteligenciji.

So last week on thursday I had a date with a man
Lots of chemistry and we kept de conversation going non stop. Lost of laughing kissing etc.
It was the first date and I went over to his house ( I know stupid)
I began to fell something for him wich is crazy
The day after he texted a picture of him in bed with his cat.
And I responded but never got a text back
Saterday night I got blacked out drunk (never doing that again)
And of course I texted him, but I don't know what I texted and I deleted the whole conversation.
All I can remember is crying myself to sleep and I was really upset, but that day I was upset about a lot of thing since I haven't slept normal in 3 weeks.
Now I don't know what to do cause I still like him and want to keep in contact but I really don't know what to do. Should I wait for him to text?
Also the number he gave me is from his company (whatsapp) and not a privet number
And he also said he doesn't like being chased. I know it's full of red flags but I just need to read it from other people I guess

He called me last night when I said goodnight, I maybe shouldn’t have but oh well. He called me to make sure I knew he wasn’t upset or angry with me and I can’t even put into words how much that meant to me, means to me - even now I’m thinking about it and feeling so lovey and lucky. He calls that sort of thing nothing but it just shows what kind of a man he is and what kind of a partner he’ll be and it just makes me feel so beyond lucky. I really don’t deserve him. I as actually handling it well, well by then I was. I was crying and upset earlier but more because I was so upset with myself for disappointing him and showing him how useless I am yet again. I felt like he was upset with me but also he said a couple times in the messages he wasn’t and that helped me a lot. Like, a lot. I think that’s a sign of a change in me - believing he isn’t upset with me. Taking his word for it and not thinking he’s lying to me and secretly detests every fibre of my being. He was frustrated and he did vent that and I’m glad he did and he should always do so, I need to make him feel safer to do so and more able to do so without repercussions. No wonder I’m not a part of his support system he was talking about. He named all his friends and then stopped talking. Followed by my resounding silence then me saying something like “…well that’s good I’m glad” in some desperate bid to say SOMETHING. I didn’t want him to think I got upset by that, he clearly knew as he started back tracking and said “well I’m sure I must tell you things sometimes” but we both know I’m not that person for him. He’s said so several times - he doesn’t see me as someone to talk to and get actual advice from or feel comfortable or safe talking to. I realise that’s all on me and my inability to create that kind of connection and things. I’m not at all upset with him, I guess I just feel upset. But it’s okay, I’m happy he has a bunch of friends to go to.
He also told me about how utterly awful things were for him while he was on the course of medication awhile ago, taking three a day. My poor, poor baby. I didn’t know what to say, I just wanted to cuddle him and kiss him all over. I hope his girlfriend at the time looked after him, I’m sure she did. I don’t even really want to think about it, I know how bad it got he’s told me that before but just the idea of him having zero joy and the issues with eating and the idea of him having that hollow feeling inside of him… it makes me so sad. I’m so so glad things have turned around for him in recent years and he’s been feeling better and it’s more manageable, I really hope that continues. I don’t really know how to just randomly say it would make no difference to me if it did get worse again, you can’t really say that can you. I mean it would make a difference but not in the way of loving him and wanting him, if that makes sense. To be honest it would just give me more of an excuse to dote on him. My honeybunny.
Anyway it was a really thoughtful phone call for him to make and I’m so grateful for him.
Todays been busy with work and things. I cbf writing about it. I went and got a new wire cable thing for my monitor laptop set up and IT WORKS! Yayayayayayayayayayayayayy. Phewf. He asked if we should postpone playing if I don’t feel well but I feel better, last week was just really hard but I feel like I’m turning that corner now. I also don’t want to postpone, I wanna watch my man play and get to FINALLY learn this whole story thing. I’ve done so well at keeping myself in the dark.
Today is so cold and windy and rainy and bleak and grey - I love it so much. It’s like 11° and I’m so happy it’s this time of year. I stood waiting for Uber earlier in the bleak weather and I felt nice because of how chilly it was and I just love gloomy weather but I felt so sad. I had to keep drinking water so I wouldn’t cry in the middle of the street. I don’t even know why I needed to cry, I think it’s just everything. I feel a lot of pressure lately, I don’t know why more so now but I just do.
I got home earlier and a wee little cat followed me off the street. It was a little baby, maybe six months to a year old? So gorgeous, it was black and white and orange and just followed me around. It even followed me inside, I may have coaxed it inside just a little but only for a minute but then it scratched M’s sofa so she wanted it out which is fair enough so I took it back out. Beautiful lil baby. I was sk worried it didn’t have a home but it looked very healthy and I know many owners don’t put collars on them in case they get strangled in a tree but even still, I just worried. I’m still worried. I’ve been downstairs a couple times to make sure it’s not sitting by my door wanting to come in from the rain or something.
I’ve not done much tonight, I’ve watched ss and sailor moon and Andy called again and I’ve felt a bit nauseous I guess. And now I’m in bed and I have a jug of fresh flowers by my bed but they smell quite strong and it’s making me feel sicker so I should move them before I sleep. Anyway I’m sleepy and have to be up early so night night

Sparked from comments on another post…
I realized while googling ‘dirty bomb’ for a post apocalyptic war time RP from a government computer at work that I was probably gonna end up on a watch list.
I’ve also googled ‘non fatal gunshot wound sites’ and ‘what does dying feel like’ among other things to bring some authenticity to my RP.
Harmless searches have been deep dives into other cultures and reading POC experiences so I can accurately write a culture that is different from my own. Also fluffiest breed of cat and sphinx cat pictures for a texting thread with a cat obsessed character.
What are your craziest RP google searches?

This is going to be long but bear with me please.
Recently I took a one week vacation in my home country where I met and bonded with a French girl two years younger than me (we are both in our late 20s, I'm 28 and she is 26). For the purpose of this post, we'll call her Charlotte. I was walking in the old town of the capital city and noticed that she was looking at souvenirs so I greeted her with a 'welcome to xxxx' and we hit it off. She was accompanied by a girl she met somewhere else in town and later on a guy from her hostel joined us and us four ended up spending the rest of the day together, from about 3 pm to 11 pm or so. This was totally unplanned and spontaneous, normally when I greet tourists in my home country we just talk for a few minutes or at most we have a drink but we never end up spending the whole day together. I told them a lot about my home country and had to somehow act as if I was a tour guide at times but I didn't mind. I also explained things seperately to her in French since I speak the language fluently. It was hard to talk to her one-on-one since we were always at least accompanied by another person but I thought we bonded quite well and she had a lot of questions about the country which was very nice. Towards the evening, we were sitting at a bar and I told her it would be nice to stay in touch given how much time we spent together and the fact that we both speak French. She was staying at a youth hostel in the old town and I was staying in a hotel in a suburb.
Two days later, I had plans to go to another town and it turns out she had planned the same thing alone. Not expecting much, I told her we could maybe go together if she wanted. I said I had other plans in that town for the day but that they weren't super important and could be pushed back to another visit. The day after we first met, she texted me early saying she wanted to go there and asking me if I wanted to accompany her, I of course accepted. Initially, we had kinda planned to see some things seperately, she wanted to take a free walking tour and I was going to go to a new museum that had recently opened but in the end she opted to just spend the day with me. It was her own choice, I didn't ask her to spend the day with me and I would have been perfectly fine with her going to that free walking tour on her own while I was at the museum. She also initially wanted to visit some museums with me but ended up changing her mind as the day progressed.
We both got up around 5 am, took the train to that other town and talked for the whole 2-hour trip. Then once we arrived I took her to the town's major tourist attraction. I put on some local music on my phone, we took a few pictures and I told her about the history of that place. We also talked a lot about our families, showed each other pictures of our parents, grandparents etc., talked about the countries we live in (she lives in France, I live in Germany). We went outside of town to a natural park which I suggested she should see. Looking back, I feel like I shared a lot of things with her that maybe I should have waited longer to share. I also indirectly or directly exposed some of my weaknesses which looking back was definitely not a smart thing to do and I have no idea why I did that. I told her the day before that she was quite tall for a girl so we talked a bit about that again. I didn't say I hated my height but I think maybe she could tell it was a big issue for me since I brought up height twice as a topic. We have exactly the same height only I'm quite short for a man and she is quite tall for a woman (we are both 5'8 or 173 cm tall).
That evening we took the train back to the capital city, during the day spent in the other town she suggested we should continue to hang out once we get back to the capital city, have a meal etc. I didn't have that in mind but I accepted because it was my last day in my home country before flying back and I thought I was having a good time with her. I told her she would be welcome to visit me in Germany if she wanted to and she said I was welcomed to visit her in France if I wanted to, said she liked having people over but that she was living in a small apartment so it was a bit tricky at times. Throughout the day, she apologized profusely about some of the questions she was asking about my country, said I didn't have to 'do this' if I didn't want to (do this as in be her free private guide I guess). I said I didn't mind that and that we had long gotten past the stage of free private guide at that point and that she should think of it as two friends talking now. We had a nice evening back in the capital city, I accompanied her to her hostel and we agreed to stay in touch. She texted me after I left to thank me for everything, saying she wanted to stay in touch and we texted a bit back and forth, I offered her some suggestions since I was flying back the next morning and she was staying for one more day. My home country was her first solo trip outside France, she said she felt extremely safe at all times.
If there is one thing you should know about me is that I barely have any friends in real life, I have become a very secluded person in the past 3-4 years due to bad experiences notably with roommates and also because I just can't be bother to go out and meet new people unless I'm traveling to another country. I have consistently spent more time talking to her during those 2 days than I have consistently spent time talking to anyone over the past 2 years. I briefly told her about a bad experience with a previous roommate of mine when I was studying in another country but did not go into full details and did not disclose that I don't have any friends though maybe she could tell, I don't know. I am also a virgin, never had a girlfriend before and barely ever kissed a girl. I managed to find out that she is single but we didn't talk about past relationships or about sex. Obviously, I did not tell her I was a virgin or that I never had a girlfriend before but maybe she could tell. With that being said, I thought it was nice that she is single since 99,9% of women I meet on trips or in everyday life are not single. On the contrary, they are all in fabulous and long-lasting relationships, at least that's what it feels like to me anyways.
So here we are, we are both back home (or at least she will be by the time this is posted and read) and I don't know what to make of all of this, I don't understand this situation, what to do next and where to go next. Since I came back, I can't stop thinking about her and the good times we had together. Maybe it's because I love her but it could also be a case of me spending too much time alone and not hanging out with someone for years now so hanging out so much with her made me feel rejuvenated. I really want to see her again but I don't know what kind of friendship/relationship we can even realistically have, I don't even know what I want and I'm afraid I could be lying to myself. I would even argue that I feel like I was a bit taken advantage of by her, especially if whatever we have eventually falls apart due to the distance or because she doesn't work to keep it going which has often been my case in the several long-distant friendships I've had in the past 10 years. Obviously I'm not blaming her for feeling taken advantage of, I voluntarily chose to spend time with her again and somewhat act as her private guide (even though that wasn't my goal) after that first day of hanging out with two other people. I could have easily said no but saying no didn't feel right to me given how much we clicked and how many things we had in common. Plus, I like talking to people, I work as a reporter so it's part of my job. With that being said, I don't know a lot of guys or people in general who would be willing to spend a whole day with a tourist and a complete stranger walking around two cities with them, telling them about the country's history, I feel like a creep. I also don't know how I truly feel about her. I can't really say that I am attracted to her per se but at the same time I haven't bonded this much with a woman or just a person in general in ages and I told her as much. I can tell she genuinely likes my country, she complimented the food and the people a lot and I have a feeling she wants to come back there eventually. She even asked me for tips and advice about learning the language.
If you have any suggestions, thoughts or questions, I would love to read them and figure this all out hopefully because I am extremely confused and don't know where to go next. Part of me wishes we had met when we were both a bit younger, I told her as much. Part of me is afraid that if I see her again, I will eventually be tempted to make a move on her and will 100% get rejected because I suck. Worse, I'm afraid I will be heartbroken if she meets someone else and gets in a relationship. At the same time, I can't imagine not talking to her or not seeing her ever again. I am confused like never before.
Thank you for your time!

I (15M) was abused sexually when I was 14 years old. I knew this lady at a place I used to live at, and I had known her for a couple of years after we moved out of that hell hole.
I was staying up late night doing stuff when I suddenly got a call from her. She called me, appearing to be drunk, and asking me what type of stuff I wanted from my old house since she'll be visiting our new one. We got into some stuff and sentimental value, and we have been talking for about half an hour at that point.
After that, she drunkingly admits that she had a crush on me for a while now. She told me that if I were old enough she'd let me hit. I didn't know what to say so I just nervously laughed, brushing it off because she was drunk. She went into more detail, she said that I reminded her of being a teenager and she liked that feeling I supposed. She wanted to know my favorite color and my favorite book, and after 15 minutes of this it got even heavier.
After a while of telling me this huge crush she had on me, she started showing me her stuff. She started asking me if I liked adult stuff, and to my "I don't know"s, she took off her bra, showed me her bra and showed me some other cleavage. I didn't want to see this because she was drunk, and again, I brushed it off. I wanted to look away but I don't know why I didn't. That night she showed me stuff on that call, when I closed my eyes to go to bed it was like my eyes weren't closed. I remember having the fucking image behind my eyelids, those wretched fucking angles she took of herself. I just wanted her out of my mind that night to go to bed but couldn't. I wanted to go to bed but was basically staring at her, I felt so bad because she was drunk. I felt like I was the abuser.
This went on for a couple of weeks before she had came to my place. It was whenever she was drunk, it took me about a week to build up the courage and ask what happened on the night of the call. She told me she regretted it, and she was embarrassed about it. I never made any advances, she was the one who would make those. I think it was a couple days after I asked her if she remembered that night, me and her were talking and I needed to take a shower. I told her that I needed to take a shower, she told me ok, then after I texted her I was done with this shower she asked me "did you think of me during your shower?" I was shocked but I told her maybe so. I think this was when I started taking a liking to her pictures and videos.
One video I remember her sending is that she was on her bed, and she didn't appear drunk this time by her texting and her face. But she was laying down, and pointed her phone behind her and started shaking her butt.
After these couple weeks of this happening without my mom knowing, my mom and I picked her up from a pick up spot with her boyfriend and she brought her two daughters along with a red skirt. I think she put the red skirt in the open because she was trying to signify to me that we were gonna do stuff. I just went home with her and my mom in the car listening to music while the baby was crying in the car seat. When we got home, she instantly wanted my mom to take her to get some beer at the store. I went to the store with them to grab beer, she got this 24 pack of some beer and told me to go away because I was underage and she didn't want to be seen with a 14 year old holding beer in her hand.
That night she came into my room, not drunk, and started talking to me while everybody was asleep. We started having a conversation about our families, how my family had a lot of underground connections and how she was a bootlegger for her family. I think the government banned access for native people, I don't know. But that night ended up with me laying on her lap while she was criss crossed.
I think it was the night after that one when she was making advances toward me. My mom wanted to have a party with another mom right next to us, and beer was involved. During the party she told me she would sneak beer for me when everybody was asleep. Well, everybody was asleep came around and she went up to my room then placed this god awful beer on my floor. It tasted so bad. But I mixed it with pepsi which made it better. Anyways that night went kinda bad.
I was in my sister's room which she borrowed, my sister wasn't in the room at all don't worry. But she told me to come to her room, and I lay on my sister's matress while she was on another matress and we start pressing feet together for fun while the kids went asleep, nothing sexual. But after that, my memories are scrambled but I think we went to my room and she started making advances on me. I refused because I wanted a condom, and she was insisting. Kind of forcing herself. I remember her telling me that she was on my period, but I told her you can still get pregnant and I kept refusing. She was pissed off and stormed into my sister's room, then texted me "do u even know what a period is". It took me a couple minutes and I mustered up the courage to go to my sister's room and apologise to her. She stands up and tells me "we're gonna have sex right now whether you like it or not."
I refused and told her that I didn't want to do it in front of the kids, but she kept trying to force herself. She goes to a particular spot in the room, points at the floor and tells me that we're gonna do it right there. I refuse again, I tell her not in front of the kids, and this is when she pulls me close to her and etches the words "I'll rape you and I bite hard" into my mind.
I escaped her grasp and went into my room, I had to go onto my phone for a couple of minutes to clear my head. I'm shaking when I write this, but I hear my door burst open and she pins me onto my mattress. We made out for a good five minutes until I prop myself better onto my bed to continue, and this is when she lays on top of me. She bit my upper lip hard, it hurt and she kept doing it. This is when she takes a body part out of my underwear, and then puts me inside of her. I pull myself out of her and tell her "I want a condom" but she repeats it back to me and keeps doing it. I eventually get her to stop, tell her again, and this is when she tells me that she slipped a birth control pill at lunch.
I hate to say this but this is when I agreed to have sex with her. I don't fucking know why and I hate myself for it because she was drunk. I feel like I am a piece of shit and I hate myself. But she got spooked because she said she thought that she heard people and stopped it.
For the next couple days we started grabbing each other in private areas, but we weren't talking dirty. I realized I was the only one talking that way when everybody wasn't around. The grabbing happened when people weren't around, too. My mom and nobody never knew about this.
The next time when we had sex came around, and it happened when she asked me to watch her kids while she was with the neighbors getting drunk. She told me she would pay me, and I told her that she wasn't gonna pay me and I could watch her kids for free. That's when she went silent and told me "you're a teenager you need money". She walked out of the back door and went to the neighbors. I watched her kids for a good ten minutes until my mom got pissed that I was watching them and went out then told her that she was the one who needed to watch her kids. She came inside while my mom went to her room, and at the door pulled me close to her and reached down my pants. We kissed and then it ended up with me on a couch, just being casual, then she comes up to me, turns around and pulls her pants down. I didn't know what to do but I told her that my mom was right in the other room and she needed to put it away, which she did.
But later we brought the kids up to my room, got them to sleep and then did it in my room. There was no hesitation from me this time and I liked it for some reason. I don't know why, now when I look back on it I just feel like I'm the piece of shit.
Her boyfriend is obviously not happy and after the court hearing or whatever it's called I heard rumors that he was calling me the rapist. When he walked out he was staring at me with a death stare. There are people supporting me, which is confusing because I feel like I'm the rapist here. And her best friend along with her boyfriend and his sister all think I'm the rapist, and who knows maybe more think that. I was hospialized thinking about this. It just tears me up inside because there are points where I think I was sexually abused and there are areas where I think I'm the rapist. It tears at my heart everyday and everything is just black and white to me. I can't enjoy my favorite stuff, my days are just bland. Story writing is the only thing where I haven't lost my love for. I don't know. I am both deeply sorry and not sorry for what happened to me.

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KNIVES

★ Butterfly Knife Freehand FN #1, B/O: $1867

★ Butterfly Knife Bright Water MW, B/O: $1098

★ Butterfly Knife Blue Steel BS, B/O: $907

★ Butterfly Knife Ultraviolet FT, B/O: $789

★ Butterfly Knife Stained FT, B/O: $695

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★ Bayonet Tiger Tooth MW #1, B/O: $888

★ Bayonet Gamma Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $727

★ Bayonet Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $608

★ Bayonet Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $521

★ Bayonet Rust Coat BS, B/O: $253

★ Bayonet Night FT, B/O: $251

★ StatTrak™ Bayonet Lore MW, B/O: $751

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★ Karambit Gamma Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $1343

★ Karambit Damascus Steel FT, B/O: $774

★ Karambit Rust Coat BS, B/O: $537

★ Karambit Boreal Forest FT, B/O: $488

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★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1523

★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1523

★ M9 Bayonet Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $1008

★ M9 Bayonet Blue Steel FT, B/O: $534

★ M9 Bayonet Rust Coat BS, B/O: $449

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★ Flip Knife Fade FN, B/O: $703

★ Flip Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 1) MW, B/O: $509

★ Flip Knife Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $406

★ Flip Knife Freehand FT, B/O: $228

★ StatTrak™ Flip Knife Bright Water FN, B/O: $332

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★ Falchion Knife Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $292

★ Falchion Knife Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $264

★ Falchion Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $258

★ Falchion Knife Bright Water MW, B/O: $133

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★ Stiletto Knife Fade FN, B/O: $822

★ Stiletto Knife Slaughter FN, B/O: $569

★ Stiletto Knife Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $530

★ Stiletto Knife Crimson Web FT, B/O: $396

★ StatTrak™ Stiletto Knife Scorched FT, B/O: $172

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★ Gut Knife Doppler (Sapphire) MW #1, B/O: $830

★ Gut Knife Fade FN, B/O: $204

★ Gut Knife Tiger Tooth FN, B/O: $138

★ Gut Knife Bright Water MW, B/O: $104

★ Gut Knife Freehand FT, B/O: $92

★ Gut Knife Urban Masked FT, B/O: $82

★ StatTrak™ Gut Knife Rust Coat BS, B/O: $93

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★ Shadow Daggers Fade FN, B/O: $258

★ Shadow Daggers Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $165

★ Shadow Daggers Blue Steel FT, B/O: $82

★ Shadow Daggers Bright Water FT, B/O: $82

★ Shadow Daggers Blue Steel WW, B/O: $80

★ Shadow Daggers Rust Coat BS, B/O: $74

★ StatTrak™ Shadow Daggers Marble Fade FN, B/O: $186

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★ Classic Knife Slaughter MW, B/O: $311

★ StatTrak™ Classic Knife Stained BS, B/O: $163

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★ Talon Knife Slaughter MW, B/O: $605

★ Talon Knife Scorched MW, B/O: $290

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★ Ursus Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $405

★ Ursus Knife Night Stripe MW, B/O: $162

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★ Paracord Knife Stained WW, B/O: $125

★ Paracord Knife Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $97

★ Paracord Knife Safari Mesh FT, B/O: $96

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★ Navaja Knife Safari Mesh FT, B/O: $71

★ Navaja Knife Scorched WW, B/O: $71

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★ Nomad Knife Fade FN, B/O: $1015

★ Skeleton Knife, B/O: $909

★ Bowie Knife Boreal Forest MW, B/O: $106

★ Survival Knife Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $97

GLOVES

★ Driver Gloves Crimson Weave FT, B/O: $335

★ Driver Gloves King Snake BS, B/O: $270

★ Driver Gloves Lunar Weave WW, B/O: $113

★ Driver Gloves Overtake WW, B/O: $88

★ Driver Gloves Overtake BS, B/O: $67

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★ Moto Gloves Transport MW, B/O: $171

★ Moto Gloves Polygon BS, B/O: $137

★ Moto Gloves Transport WW, B/O: $71

★ Moto Gloves 3rd Commando Company BS, B/O: $62

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★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Kimono WW, B/O: $1027

★ Specialist Gloves Tiger Strike FT, B/O: $654

★ Specialist Gloves Mogul FT, B/O: $295

★ Specialist Gloves Lt. Commander FT, B/O: $277

★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Web FT, B/O: $275

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★ Sport Gloves Slingshot FT, B/O: $796

★ Sport Gloves Amphibious BS #2, B/O: $699

★ Sport Gloves Omega FT, B/O: $656

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★ Broken Fang Gloves Unhinged BS, B/O: $60

WEAPONS

AK-47 Case Hardened BS, B/O: $130

AK-47 Bloodsport MW, B/O: $79

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Bloodsport FT, B/O: $70

AK-47 Neon Rider MW, B/O: $60

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AWP Fade FN, B/O: $864

AWP BOOM MW, B/O: $84

AWP Containment Breach FT, B/O: $69

AWP Containment Breach FT, B/O: $69

AWP Wildfire FT, B/O: $59

AWP Chromatic Aberration FN, B/O: $59

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $65

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $65

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Desert Eagle Blaze FN, B/O: $565

Desert Eagle Blaze FN, B/O: $565

Desert Eagle Printstream FN, B/O: $155

Desert Eagle Cobalt Disruption FN, B/O: $58

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M4A1-S Icarus Fell FN, B/O: $414

M4A1-S Printstream MW, B/O: $204

M4A1-S Printstream MW, B/O: $204

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M4A4 Poseidon FN, B/O: $1402

M4A4 The Emperor FN, B/O: $152

M4A4 Asiimov WW, B/O: $97

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USP-S Kill Confirmed MW, B/O: $65

USP-S Printstream FT, B/O: $69

StatTrak™ USP-S Kill Confirmed FT, B/O: $123

StatTrak™ USP-S Neo-Noir FN, B/O: $106

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AUG Flame Jörmungandr FN, B/O: $218

P2000 Ocean Foam FN, B/O: $139

Souvenir SSG 08 Death Strike MW, B/O: $81

CZ75-Auto Emerald Quartz MW, B/O: $61

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Euthanizing my cat was probably the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make in my life.
You have been one of my greatest joys in life for the past 8 years. You have been a part of my family. You were there since my third year of college. You’ve been there in my early 20s, and I was hoping you’d be there and grow with me, as I find my happiness, success, and purpose in life. I wanted to take you with me the moment I become stable and live on my own for the first time. I never expected to lose you this early. I didn’t think I’d be here today, scrolling down this webpage as I search for memorial items to commemorate you, when two days ago you were doing perfectly fine as I fed you your favorite treats. I never thought that today would have been the last day that I could give you your favorite neck scratches. My eyes have been so poofy from crying and seeing your favorite napping spots and items in this household make me even more sad.
Even though you’re masungit and not the most affectionate cat, you expressed your love in other ways. You’d be in the same room as us for hours (awake or sleeping), always wanting to be in our vicinity, no matter how loud everyone was. You were also the most behaved cat - you never bothered to chew any personal items, jump on the kitchen and dining counters, or destroy earphones, like your younger brother does haha. I’ll miss that about you.
I’ll miss squishing your face. I’ll miss taking derpy pictures of you. I’ll miss taking derpy pictures with you. I’ll miss rubbing your flabby tummy and instantly using my ninja reflexes to move my hand away before you could bite/scratch me. I’ll miss seeing you sunbathe by the windows. I’ll miss the ultra rare and brief moments you slept beside me on my bed. I’ll miss feeding you your favorite chicken churu treats. I’ll miss “apir-ing” you with both of your paws. I’ll miss seeing you come to us whenever we brought home Jollibee - JB fried chicken was your favorite and the only human food you’d eat. I’ll miss your startled expressions and your fuzzy tail when we accidentally make a sudden noise. I’ll miss playing with you with your favorite red feather toy from Daiso that I’d re-buy every year because it would break haha. I’ll miss seeing you nap on my office chair that I could never use (because you were always on it!) I’ll miss the stinkeye you’d give me while I was on my office chair because you wanted to use it haha. I’ll miss seeing your white fur all over the house because you shed so much. I’ll miss brushing your soft and luscious coat even though you hated it. I’ll miss taking out your muta every morning. I’ll miss seeing you sleep on your back with your belly faced up. I’ll miss seeing you nap and play with Ri. I’ll miss seeing you patiently wait for Ri to finish eating before you eat your meal. I’ll miss dressing you up with mini t-shirts and cute animals hats. I’ll miss hearing your rare meows because you were such a silent cat. I’ll miss greeting you every morning the moment I wake up and kissing you good night on your head before I sleep. I miss you so much my heart hurts.
I’m sorry I couldn’t do enough for you. I’m sorry I wasn’t enough, but I wish you knew I tried my best. You will always be a part of my heart. You will always be Ri’s Kuya. I love you so so so much and I miss you already my baby. Wherever you are, may you rest easy and without any pain, my love. It’s not a goodbye, but a see you later. I love you.

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My sister and her husband found a sick cat at the end of her driveway and brought it to me as they cannot care for it. and they already asked all 3 neighbors all of 3 denied having/missing a cat. It has a clipped ear which I’ve been told is part of a program that fixes them and gives them shots? (Please let me know if that’s not correct as I have another cat already and worry about his health) its VERY weak and was brought to me cold, wet, and with very matted fur. That was Sunday at 1pm and it’s now about 1am Tuesday. Since I’ve had it, it has eaten maybe 5 or so pieces of hard food (she completely ignored wet food) and a little bit of water and watechicken broth mix. Its rejected a syringe to be fed/drink both water and broth mix. And it’s not used the bathroom on itself or in the cage in the 30+ hours. It has not hissed, isn’t aggressive, isn’t scared. Seems relaxed for the most part and even purrs here and there. It does meow every so often and then just naps continuously. It tries to stand and move but just falls over and gives up and falls back asleep. Anyways I just wanted to cover all bases if I could before asking if there’s anything else I can do at home for this cat or help any better. I have it set up in a medium dog crate with blankets and towels, food and water with a little broth. (I was told the broth will help it drink more wate get more nutrients) my sister made an appointment for the vet but the soonest was Monday so a little bit away. Again any help or info would be very much appreciated, thank you.
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TLDR- sick cat need info on caring for it for a week

I have two cats, aged 1 last October. They have been with us since March 2022, after being born and raised in the shelter. They always been shy and distant, but the people at the shelter told us that that would go away after a couple weeks. This are my first cats so I believed them. Now, a year later, nothing has changed. They can’t be picked up or held, they can’t be cuddled. They especially hate my husband which I can’t understand as he is an animal lover and always tries to spend time with them and play with them. They, most of the time, won’t even except treats from him or play with him, while they do it with me most of the time. They have been at the vet several times for routine checks, have been sterilised and are overall very healthy. This is a big load on our psych and our marriage as it makes us very sad that the cats obviously hate us.
Edit: they also destroy everything from chairs to walls. Feeliway was used for several months in the beginning but did nothing.
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I have some living in my house and I’ve caught a few because my indoor cat will alert me and then I pick them up using a bag. I’ve let them go far from my house because I can’t kill or let them die.
However, I don’t know if they’re house or deer mice. Next time I catch one I will take a picture.
Is it safe to own them as pets if they are wild? Could I take care of them with gloves so they don’t bite me?
I’m very very new to mice and rodents in general so excuse my ignorance. It just came to my mind and I wanted to know first if it’s safe.

Me and my fiancé have been together 4 years and got engaged 6 months ago.
I have a group of friends from high school (6 girls and 3 guys) that I’m still close with, we hang out as a group once a month or so. I only think of them as friends, and we only have a friendship in the context of the group. My fiancé has met them many times and is always welcome to hang out when we meet up.
I was looking a picture of us today and it suddenly struck me, I have “hooked up” with 3 out of 6 of the girls before I met my partner.
Girl 1: fooled around as FWBs for 6 months or so about 9 years ago
Girl 2: went on a few secret dates and made out, got to “third base” so to speak, only lasted a month - about 8 years ago
Girl 3: drunken cuddling and a single kiss about 7 years ago
Is this something I should tell my fiancé about? I hadn’t really thought about it until I saw the photo.
Tldr: forgot to tell fiancé I had hooked up with female friends in the past.

First of all, I know this isnt gonna happen, and that Tappei himself said he is not a fan of the idea. And I also know usually anime live actions sucks.
BUT
In this case Id like to imagine it being produced as a SERIES, not as a movie. A 13 one-hour episode serie, just like the Directors Cut version.
Lets split the challenges of making it happen:
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• World - We have seen fantasy worlds being constructed really beautifully, examples: Game of Thrones, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, there are many titles.. I dont see Re:Zeros world being any more difficult than those mentioned, in fact it should be easier, since most of season one is in the mansion/capital/arlam, those could be easily depicted on a live action...
• Fantasy Characters: in ReZero we have half elfs, semi beasts, spirits, and characters like Betelgeuse... This would definitely be a challenge, but with the budget I could see it happening, elfs are not that hard to imitate, beast like characters like Ricardo would probably be better off being more humanesk on a live action, Betelgeuse would definitely be a challenge but more on a casting side rather than design. Puck on the other hand would be tough... Its hard to mimic Puck on a live action without looking silly, a talking cute flying cat, not sure how to fix Puck, but everything else is definitely doable
• Soundtrack: if it were to happen Id love to see it use the original soundtrack, buy the rights for it!
• Fight scenes: ReZero is more of a dialogue driven serie, which is why I think it could work with the right prodiction. Elsa fight scene would be easy, theres nothing too special about it. The Majuus in the forest would heavily rely on CGI but with a Game of Thrones like production its a piece of cake. Those dragons are much harder and they looked amazing. The Witchs Cult could easily be done with the right costumes. The White Whale would be a tough one, heavy CGI if done poorly would be the end for the series. I guess most of the CGI budget would have to go for this one. But if done well, could be even more terrifying than in the Anime. I can easily picture it in my mind, similar to Game of Thrones battle at wintefell, against the Night King. A dark night, suddenly the fog comes, people start dying, etc... This could be the peak or the bottom of the series.
• Casting: we finally arrived at the most difficult category... The casting would be the most important, if this one fails, then it would definitely flop... But imagine if we actually get some good cast, like in Game of Thrones? Casting Betelgeuse and Emilia would be the most difficult I suppose.. I dont think the casting should be japanese only, since its a fantasy world and would look weird, I think the show would look better with an western cast. But we would lose the japanese language which I find so appealing in fiction, but thats ok... I think it would be better than being a Japanese only production and have a mediocre cast...

Anyway, I was thinking about it and it seemed really doable in my head, definitely much MUCH easier than Game of Thrones, and we all know how good it was at its peak. Of course, Id only imagine it if it had a production value similar to GOT as well.
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What do you think the greatest challenge would be? Would you watch it?

Bit of a long story for anyone who wants to give advice. So, my sister has a friend whom I've seen every now and then at random events or even at my house throughout the past five or six years. I never really knew her personally, I only ever briefly saw her and maybe exchanged a few words. I would try sometimes to text her and she would reply, but it would be very far and few between as well dry and short. So eventually I just said to myself "okay, she's not interested, that's that. Oh well," and it was fine, no harm no foul.
Give it about a year, and I see her again at my friends house for a 4th of July party in 2022. We say hey to one another and go about our business. I almost texted her again that night, but I decided not to due to not wanting to be pushy or weird. Flash forward to august, and I see her at my house attending a bachelorette party for a mutual friend, and later that night when I got home, she was the only one at my house who was awake when I walked in. I said hey, she said hey, and then I went to my room and went to bed (smooth right). Flash forward to December. I'm at work (a movie theater), and I'm doing dishes in the back. My manager comes back and tells me I need to help the cashier hand out food orders, so I do so. Lo and behold, the order I needed to give was none other than my sisters friend. She doesn't really say anything to me which I found kind of odd (and a bit rude given we know one another), and she leaves with her order. However, an hour later she comes back to the concessions counter and apologizes for not saying anything and tells me it was nice to see me. And to be honest, that made my night. However, I still didn't text her, but a week goes by and slowly but surely the urge to text her built, and I finally did.
I texted her and we texted back and forth for a bit, but after a little bit I built up the courage to ask her on a date. I didn't get a reply for about an hour or so, so I was thinking "yeah I didn't think so," but I got home from a friends house, and my sister jokingly tells me that she's "being the best wingman." And that caught me off guard. The reason she hadn't replied was because she was asking my sister for advice and wanting to make sure my sister was okay with her going on a date with me. After talking to my sister about it, she replied to me saying that she did want to go on a date with me. But before we continue, my sister told me a few things about her. For one thing, my sister said "the fact that she's even talking to you is a good sign because she doesn't give any guys a chance. She thinks she doesn't have time for a relationship and that being single is what's best for her," and things like that. So after hearing that, I was feeling pretty good, knowing that even when she doesn't give guys the time of day that she's willing to give me a shot. So we keep texting and we finally decide on a date.
So we go, and it was great. We talked for like two hours, and we talked about how it was funny that my sister is engaged to my best friend (yeah I forgot to mention that) and how now I'm on a date with one of her friends, and we were also both so surprised on how much not only her and I had in common, but how much both of our families have in common. So date ends, and like I said, it was great. So the catch is, she tells me that she's interested in seeing me and wants to see where it goes, but wants to take it slow, which I said was totally fine because it was. So we keep texting, keep talking, keeping going on dates, and we keep getting closer with one another. Eventually I ask her if she was ready to make things "official," and she tells me that she really likes what we were doing but still wants to go slow and not rush anything because she "really wants to make it work," but she also told me that she's really afraid of commitment, but I saw all of this as good things because it showed she cared and really enjoyed seeing me, and like she said, it showed she wanted to make it work. So we keep doing what were doing, we meet each others families and she has dinner with mine one day and then I have dinner with hers another, and were taking good steps. My sister tells me that she told her how she cares about me and how I'm the only guy she talks to and how she "genuinely enjoys being around me." We keep doing what were doing, and we finally have a long talk one day about us and our feelings, and it was a good talk. I opened up about how I really felt about her, and she told me that she finally realized that she did "like me" and she realized that she really had feelings for me. She told me that she cares about me and that she wants to be with me, and that since I was the brother to one of her good friends, and how we have seen each other throughout the years randomly, and then she saw me again at the movie theater that she thought it was a sign from God telling her that I'm the one for her and that it's "meant to be," and after continuing to talk, we finally kissed. Things were going great. I even asked her if she wanted to start going to church with me on Sundays because I hadn't been in a while and she said she wanted to. However... literally only 4 or 5 days after telling me all of that...she ended things.
She told me that she realized that she really didn't have time for a relationship and that she couldn't see herself being able to put in the effort required to have a lasting and sustainable relationship. It left me confused, hurt, shocked, sad, and admittedly angry. So just like that, things ended. We stopped talking, and I haven't talked to her since the break up. However, I did come face to face with her at our college campus, she was leaving the class that I was going into, but no words were spoken. We dated for about two months, and I know, it doesn't seem long, but I was ready to commit to this girl for life. Like she told me, I also felt it truly was God sent, considering how our paths have crossed so often in the past, how I always used to try and talk to her, how she's my sisters good friend, and how we shared a shocking amount in common with one another, and more. It seemed so right for us to be together. It really did feel like we were made for each other. This is the fourth week we have been apart, and it feels like I miss her more each day.
At first, I was angry with her and confused as well as extremely distraught and sad, not really knowing why or how this had happened. I remember coming home from a shift of work the day after and just breaking down into tears. I really let myself fall for her. As I was crying I remember asking and pleading with God why yet again he has allowed me to love someone just to take them away. I remember asking God why I can't just have someone. Eventually I got in the "screw her" mindset for about a week, but that faded and since then I've accepted it and forgave her in my heart and have been trying to move on. I unfollwed her on all social media and deleted all texts and pictures. But something inside me is telling me that it isn't the end. There is this deep inner feeling telling me that after some time things will work out between us. So I keep thinking that maybe God does intend for us to be together, but the time isn't right, and that after a season of separation and growth he'll bring us back together once the time is right. Or maybe it's my sub conscious giving me false hope and wishful thinking. Maybe we'll reconnect at my sisters wedding in a few months. I guess time will tell. Any ways, any kind of advice is welcome. Do you think that this odd feeling of almost certainly knowing were going to come back to each other is God telling me to be patient and wait because he does intend on allowing us come back to one another, or do you think God separated us for good and that I need to move on completely? I know I sound like a love struck fool, but it is what it is. Thanks for reading my novel.
EDIT: Another thing that is giving me a certain amount of hope is that I talked to my pastor about it, and he explained that while I need to look forward and at God, that anything is possible, and that God has unique and perfect timing. He then went on to explain that he was in a similar situation when he first started dating his girlfriend, who is now his wife. He said they broke up for a month after dating for a month or two, and then slowly but surely started talking and seeing each other again. So it kind of reminds me of my situation. Also, my sister and my best friend broke up for a month or so when they first started dating, and two years later they're engaged. So those similar situations are giving me hope, and maybe those situations are there to guide me to show me God has perfect timing. One last thing. She's my sisters friend, and like how I kept seeing her randomly in the past, I'm undoubtedly going to keep seeing her like that in the future, so she's never going to fully be out of my life. Hell like I said earlier, she's gunna be at my sisters wedding AND reception, so maybe God will use that as a good opportunity for us to reconnect. Or maybe I'm being falsely hopeful. Just food for thought.

I don’t get nightmares frequently. But when I do, I usually wake up numb, shaking or crying.
I had a night shift yesterday and I went to sleep this morning around 8:30 am. I dreamt that I was enjoying an office party. We’re soon bound to return to offices permanently, and we were celebrating that. Everyone seemed to be in a good mood. All of us partied from the morning till the evening by the pool and then I came back home. My parents were getting ready to meet my sister’s fiancée’s family. They were a great bunch and I personally vibed with her fiancé a lot, so I was happy.
Somewhere in the middle I started feeling nauseous. Visions of a woman dressed in white, in a village that’s burnt to ruin just crossed my head briefly. I soon recovered and paid no mind to it.
We drove to their house and they greeted us at the door. It was an old house, with only the ground floor but it covered a huge area. They ushered us into a room, with a bed in it, where I laid down. The rest of my family sat by the balcony.
I suddenly felt like blacking out and it felt as if I have been transported to a mirror dimension of sorts, because I was shrieking at the top of my lungs but no one was responding. They were busy in their own conversation as if I wasn’t there at all.
I felt something crawling up my throat and I felt like puking again, only this time a small bug came. I wasn’t even unable to process it, when I felt like puking again. It was a horror show, as I coughed up a spider, a rat, a cat’s head, a cow’s skeleton and an elephant’s head in succession. I was tired and almost on the verge of collapsing when it all stopped.
I opened my eyes again to see that I was lying on the same bed I was previously, peacefully. I felt light, as if a weight had lifted off my chest. As if it was over and I was now free to go. I looked over to the side to see my family still talking, only I could hear their voices this time and they could see me. I got up exactly when the fiancée’s family knocked on the door, telling us we are going out for dinner since there is a scheduled power cut in the area soon.
We left in a big car, and I was just staring out the window. We stopped at the traffic light for a minute, I saw a newspaper clipping pasted on a pole next to us. It was about a girl who killed herself, and next to her was a picture of a drawing she had made apparently the night she died.
The same woman in white. On top of the roof of a house (supposedly hers). I was taken aback for a second, and was squinting my eyes to read what was written in the news article properly.
All of a sudden I was back on the bed, my eyes glued together, my hands tied. I could no longer hear my parents’ voices, nor anyone else’s. I immediately started screaming for my mom. For some reason, my voice came out whispery and coarse, even I wasn’t able to hear my own screams properly.
I felt someone moving around me, and from the light footsteps, and a tiny shadow I could almost see from trying to force my eyes open, I could gather it was someone dresses in white. My panic grew tenfolds, I was crying, begging, calling for my mom, while she silently stood in front of me, or so I hoped.
I felt something prick my neck and all of a sudden a needle went in, and i could only feel the hot, searing sensation of the liquid. In a second, I was convulsing like a fish out of the water, and sobbing, still asking for my mom.
When I came to, back to reality, I was crying too hard that my entire chest felt tight, but just silently. I could hear my mom and my sister coming into the room, so I quickly hid and wiped away the remaining tears. I was too tired from the ordeal and still pretty numb everywhere in my body. But I was grateful to be awake and hearing their voices again. It was 11:43 am when I woke up.
What is even worse is that I feel like I have watched another nightmare similar to this, but I can’t remember when. Kind of like watching a movie and then it’s sequel, but you don’t really remember the first movie at all.
My sister is set to get married this year. I just hope everything goes well.

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I've been watching some reactors on YT watch the MCU and today Addie Reacts released a video of her reacting to Spider-Man: NWH. After watching the video I had begun thinking about what the next set of Spiderman movies would look like and what the story/villains could by, yada, yada. I've thought about this before. But what I've been thinking about today I actually really like a lot and It's consumed my brain all day.
This might be a long post and I apologize in advance. May not even get it all down today (Mar 27)
Basic framework: It's a trilogy of movies, not thinking too much about connecting them to Kang or Secret Wars. Maybe I'll come back to that part later.
I think Black Cat has to be a big part of all 3 movies. Her and Peter are essentially the 2 main characters of the trilogy.
Whether they meet first in costume or at GED school or whatever. Better writers than me can figure that out. Black Cat at first is a thorn in Spider-man's side. She keeps robbing places, Peter is either too late or outsmarted everytime. She's one of the 2 villains in the first movie. Character interaction ensues, growth happens, blah, blah. By the end of the movie, They're on the same side. He's convinced her to try and be good. 2nd movie, they're a team. Fighting crime (i know a lot of people missed that in the Holland movies) flirting up a storm. They're a couple. It's cute and sweet. They work really well together. By the end of the second movie or early in the third, she breaks bad again. She just cant do this. Mix of possible reasons, she likes Spiderman more than Peter, He still has feelings for is one true love MJ and he can't get over that. There's plenty of reasons that would make sense for this. Peter has lost Felicia and he knows there's nothing he can really do to change her. Third Movie, (I realize I don't have titles for these movies yet.....help me out?) She's back to robbing banks/rich people who deserve it. Peter and Felicia have one face-off in this movie and.....he just never could get the upper hand on her could he? She steals (insert chekov's gun) and gets away and Peter feels awful about it feeling it's all his fault. Her mini-redemption arc in this movie is that in the final battle she's the x-factor that swings the fight in Spiderman's favor. She loves her some spidey. But she can't come back all the way to Peter's side. She takes all the money she's stolen and flys into the sunset. (Insert some cathartic dialogue to finish their relationship in a satisfactory way)
That's more or less the common through-line of the trilogy. Who are the villains of the movies? I think it should all build up to a Sinister 6-ish finale like the first trilogy did. 6 adversaries for Spiderman to overcome. In the Home trilogy it was Doc Ock, Goblin, Electro, Sandman, Lizard, and Doctor Strange. 6 adversaries, perhaps varying levels of Bad Guy-ness.
This part I'm still working through. (I'm ignoring the Morbius credits scene because.....what the hell)
I think of the 6; these ones are a must: Adrian Toomes/Vulture, Felicia Hardy/Black Cat, Mac Gargan/Scorpion/Venom, Quentin Beck/Mysterio.
That's 4. I think a good 5th one would be either Aaron Davis/Prowler or Herman Shultz/Shocker. The 6th is more of what villain the director wants the most. I could see a Martin Li taking over FEAST from the recently departed Aunt May. I could see a Wilson Fisk, depending on what happens in Born Again obviously. I originally thought of Kraven, but I think he would work better in a 4th(7th?) movie where they do the Kraven's Last Hunt story and Peter passes on the Spiderman mantle to Miles Morales.
First Movie, I think this movie goes smaller. Parker is going after burglers and robberys. The two main peeps he's after are Black Cat and ShockeProwler.(Small tangent- I just realized I think the Tinkerer needs to be here and the one who builds them all upgraded suits....Maybe he's the 6th?.....idk I don't think that works as well if he counts as one of the 6) Black Cat is working by herself. Shocker is trying to build up the Vulture empire that was lost once he gets back out of prison. Vulture's motivation is that he wants to see his family again, he needs money for child support/whatever. He needs money, he got Shocker to help him get started since he got out of prison first. Final battle: Spider-man & Black Cat vs. Vulture &Shocker. Good guys win, back to prison go the bad guys. BUT.....Mac Gargan is impressed with the showing. He's got some ideas for Toomes and Shultz.
Second Movie, Spiderman and Black Cat living their lives, fighting crime, proving Jamison wrong. Happiest Peter has been in a long time. Venom symbiote gets to him, starts to change him, make him more aggressive, you've seen Spider-Man 3. Felicia catches on pretty quickly that something has changed. She doesn't like what's happening, he tells her nothing is wrong, she calls BS. Is able to pretty much break through to him pretty quickly. (Proving how much better she is than Tobey's MJ) He is able to reject the exrta strength and aggression that the symbiote is feeding him. He's unable however to get rid of it. It's attached to him and he cant figure out how to get rid of it....Mac Gargan orchestrates a break-out. Spiderman and Black Cat are on the case. This confrontation between them, I hace a few ideas on where it could happen. Either at the Prison and the loud blaring alarms are what get venom off of Peter and onto Gargan, or at a church cause bells, or at an incinerator cause fire. Wherever it happens, symbiote leaves Peter, joins Gargan....oh boy. Final battle is Spiderman & Black Cat vs. Venom. Good guys win by using fire, killing the symbiote. They think that Gargan is dead as well. Good guys leave, Mac Gargan is left for dead. Shocker and/or Vulture find him and help him. Gargan is PISSED. They leave to find an old friend of Toomes'. Phineas Mason, The Tinkerer. He's got some fancy suits for them all to try out. Phineas is not alone, he's had some help building the new suits. Iron Man 1 guy enters the room. Team Mysterio is gonna help out.
Third Movie, Black Cat has left. Just not working out....
(It was at this point that life got in the way of me finishing this. It is now more than a few hours later and my train of thought is completely gone, I'll do my best with what I remember thinkng about)
Black Cat is gone....Spider-man is doing his thing still, he beats up some goons that let slip a little something something. Their boss wants (insert chekov's gun). Spiderman is smart, figures out where this THING is. Black Cat is escaping the building with THE THING. First action scene of the movie is their fight here. Black Cat wins, she's hung around Spiderman a lot, knows his moves, fight is relatively easy for her to win. (1/6 fought) The Peter Parker storyline is he's trying to get an internship at this start-up company called Oscorp/BaxteDoom/(whatever easter egg you want) . He's one of a few candidates, another candidate is MJ. Spiderman is able to find the goon's boss; enter Kingpin/Martin Li. (If Parker volunteers time at FEAST, this is Li, if thats too much time to spend in however long this movie is, make it Kingpin) Spiderman tries to take him down.....not even close. Doesn't get beat up, but Kingpin is able to get away. (2/6 fought) At this point, Peter has been able to build some of his own tech, puts a trackerecorder on Kingpin/one of his goons, whatever. Finds out that they are trying to find THE THING before someone else does. Apparently someone else is after it too and they're not fans of each other. Spiderman stops another bank robbery. This time, it's someone he knows. The Shocker is on a robbing spree to try and find this THING. Spiderman wins this fight. He really needed this one.(3/6 fought) Shocker doesn't put up much of a fight when Spiderman interrogates him, Gives up his secret lair's location. As spiderman leaves him to be arrested, Shocker taps a beacon on one of his gauntlets. Spiderman gets to the lair...looks pretty standard...."Welcome SPiderman. I've missed you" Jake Gyllenhaals' voice. Mysterio is seemingly back. Spiderman figures out pretty quickly that this is a distraction and tries to leave the fight ASAP, but Mysterio won't let him. Eventually, Mysterio says "Nice fighting with you again, you never dissapoint." He green smokes away and in comes Mac Gargan in his Scorpion suit. he stabs him pretty quickly withj his tail, Poisoned with something. Gargan wants Spiderman to SUFFER. Collapses the building on him, leaves him to die. Spiderman escapes this predicament thanks to (Potential Daredevil/Defender cameo here) or Black Cat. She never stopped caring about Spiderman, even if she knows she can't be with him. She tells him that she has hiddenn THE THING somewhere she doesn't think they can find it. Wishes him well and leaves. (maybe kisses him?)......
And now I'm stuck. I want there to be a final battle between three parties. Kingpin or Martin Li and their army vs. Gargan and Vulture vs. Spiderman. Final battle works out to Spiderman vs Scorpion. Scorpion has all this hate for spiderman and he's just too far gone. Vulture sees he cant work for this guy anymore. Different goals. Flies away. Kingpin and his goons either cut their losses or see that THE THING has been used up and no longer has value and dips. Promising revenge on Spiderman before departing. Scorpion loses the fight by losing his tail and spiderman uses it to incapacitate Gargan.
THE THING could be a couple things. Vial of Super Soldier Serum, something mutant related, the same chemicals that made Daredevil. My personal favorite would be the 2nd bangle that wasn't in Ms. Marvel. I feel like that could work out. Peter storyline ends with 3 people being chosen for the internship/job. Peter, MJ, and (fill-in easter egg cameo). Maybe Bruno from Ms. Marvel to really make the connection obvious.
I swear I had better ideas for that third movie when I was first writing this down. stupid real life messed with my thinking. That second movie idea is a little underwhelming I think as well.....I feel like there's some good stuff here.
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What do you think?

Hey so ive been dating this girl (shes 22F and im M20) for a few months and yesterday we had a pretty big argument that just escalated from something really small just a remark her friends said about me. She said we fight way too much and it makes her want to be with me less and less.
After I got home we called and I apologized to her, we said we'd work things out and we hung up still as a couple. I got into my shower and 1hour later she called me and she said she wanted to take distance from me, I did not understand anything so we had a call the whole night that lasted 6-7 hours where we just emptied our hearts out (she also told me that she was thinking about our fights since a week ago but didnt tell me so I dont influence her decision) and no matter what I told her that I was sorry I take everything too personally that i'd work it out with her that I never loved someone the way I loved her she didnt budge and she said we were done. She cried too and she said that the times she spent with me were the happiest of her life, I was also her first real love, her first kiss her first everything.
She said she still loves me but we hung up and i told her to think about it a little more and this morning I woke up at 6 to her telling me she wasnt going to change and that she just doesnt see us together ever, we're not compatible. I'm heartbroken because I feel like it could have been different and we spent a lot of time together pretty much 5-6 hours a day where shed be at my place and we'd play video games or watch a movie/show, and now I just feel empty. Now she blocked me everywhere and I mean everywhere even TikTok that she uses once a year, Steam, Discord, I have no means to contact her, she also deleted every single picture of her she sent to me, including something rly small like her calendar where her e-mail showed, or her nails when she got them done, leaving only the GIFS and memes.
I miss her terribly and I thought we were soulmates. I went to my college health center today and got a session with a therapist, it did help me to vent a little but at the end I don't know if I'll ever be happy again without her, it felt so natural and I can tell she genuinely loved me she trusted me and I feel like just because we had some fight now it's all gone forever. It saddens me that there's so many games we wont finish together, so many shows we planned on watching (we were watching Dexter right now) that wont lead anywhere.
I told her I'd do everything to get her back but she said that she wouldn't change her mind that she doesn't wish to continue with me. I'm devastated that she gave up so easily on me, I know that tonight she had a game night with our mutual friend group that I had to leave because she introduced me to them. It just feels so unreal that everything is gone forever now and that she just dumped me like I meant nothing to her. Especially since our fights were so small we forgot about it the day after I asked her to tell me what fight we had except the last one and she couldnt remember a single one. I guess it was too taxing on her and she just didn't wanna work it out with me. It is true that at the beginning when I met her she immediately said she didnt want a relationship but everything happened so smoothly and naturally that she fell in love and so did I. Even this last week we spent our evenings together and I couldnt tell anything was off. She was as loving as usual.
Sorry for the wall of text, I hope someone reads and can give me their insight, I have no choice but to go no contact eventhough I already created an alternate ig account and sent her a dm request idk if she'll get it but I just wanted to tell her I still love her and that I'm here for her since my therapist said she looks insecure about herself (she has body dysmorphia she doesnt like the way she looks and I'm conventionally attractive but she's the only one who ever made me feel so happy and I never cheated on her or made her feel bad about her looks, I always supported her and told her that to me, she was the most attractive girl in the world)