I thought things were going to work out
I was quite terrified to date. I have a fear of getting hurt and trusting people.
So when I (26 f) first met my ex boyfriend (30 m), I was so scared. I communicated this to him, as I felt nauseous all the time and he reassured me that he was a nice guy and I have nothing to worry about and that he really likes me and even if anything happens, we will always still be friends.
He was so nice, affectionate and constantly sending me soppy messages. Our dates were amazing and he seemed to adore me. We had so much in common weirdly, and he agreed with everything I said. We connected so well and it was just so fun
I relaxed and started to enjoy the relationship. He was a new immigrant to the country, and only 2 days after he moved here had me messaged me on tinder.
Because of this, I was the one planning all the dates. I planned picnics, walks, escape rooms, Cooked him dinners and picked him up in my car
There were a few red flags though and I brushed them aside. One being he never planned dates and the other the fact he constantly talked about his ex girlfriends. He had stayed very close friends with them and had only ended a situationship 3 weeks before he met me and still talked to her
Nevertheless, we got on so amazingly and our connection and chemistry was great. But over time it faded
A lot of things he did annoyed me because I felt he had no consideration for me. Like talking about his exes in front of my friends, not cooking me food when I went to stay at his, he talked about his future goals and I didn’t really fit into them it seemed
The big one was him telling me he broke up with his ex because he wanted a baby and she wasnt ready and she said he was pressuring him. When I told him I want kids in future he said ‘oh I don’t want them anymore, I’m going to book a vasectomy!’ In which I replied ‘wow that’s a permanent decision, I’d hold back on that one.’ And he seemed to get annoyed with my comment
He always started to get annoyed with me. I got little criticisms all the time and I’d I did the slightest thing wrong, I was met by an evil deathstare. He changed, he wasn’t nice like he was in the beginning. He accused me of not u understanding sarcasm and being indecisive with date planning. He called me manipulative when I asked for my needs to be met. He was extremely resentful especially when I brought up my needs. Every time I wanted to talk about things I was worried about, he would just shut down. He also would always sulk about tiny things such as a pizza takeaway being closed or WiFi not working in a hotel meaning he wouldn’t speak to me all night
I became so anxious and sad and told him this and he said he couldn’t reassure me.
One day out of the blue, he phoned me up and said he’s ending things because

• he doesn’t want kids
• he wants a life where he can move around a lot (weird because so do I)
• he never fell in love and dated me because he was lonely
• he needs therapy and hasn’t lived in many years

tldr He was straight back on the dating apps. I’m confused as he didn’t even try and stay friends with me

I can sorta do vibrato because it's easy but other than that I really just need advice on what's wrong and what I need to improve. Again I'm a complete beginner so if there's any singing vocabulary I might not know what they mean or hear the issue if applicable.

Well, this sucks to write & im probably not putting it in the right sub, im sorry im advance. But I am facing a dilema, & I need an outside perspective.
There are two acquaintances of mine, who are married, with a toddler & an infant. The parents both have a very bad problem with alcohol- I mean, the mom drank openly in bars during both pregnancies, & they often are in public with their children getting absolutely hammered. To the point where if their children needed them in an emergency, neither parent would be able to respond appropriately. They always get belligerent & scream at each other until one of them eventually stumbles back home with kids in tow. This isn’t a once in a while occurrence, it is like several times a week & that’s just out in public.
It’s excruciating to watch. I grew up with terrible alcoholic parents & it has set me back so far in life because of the trauma. Their toddler is always screaming & in tears, unless he’s passed out somewhere. It’s triggering to say the least.
I don’t want to come off as judgmental. I have had my own severe struggles with alcohol too- but the day I found out I was pregnant, i stopped, i got help. The same resources are available to these parents as well. I really feel for them, addiction is terrible, but at what point does someone need to advocate for those kids that can’t advocate for themselves?
No one in the community, a semi large group of people who witness this on a regular basis, have stood up to confront them at all. I’m especially disappointed in the bartenders who continue to over-serve them. It’s a delicate situation & i just don’t know what I should do, or if I should just continue to mind my own damn business.
So, advice. Should I confront the parents? Is there a different way to help them?

Winner for May will be determined on June 2nd.
Link to May's results:
Here is the updated Contest Championship Spreadsheet not yet updated
We have a new guideline in place now involving fan games:
"If you have a fan game you want to cover then DM me here or on Discord and I'll be happy to discuss. There are certain fan games where they have went above and beyond and I totally think they should count."
June's theme is Style Change.
Take a song and rearrange it in a new style or add a twist. Example would be changing genre, changing a song from fast to slow (and vice versa), changing the mood (happy to sad). This month is pretty subjective so challenge yourselves however you like.
If you have any questions or are unsure, feel free to DM me here, on Twitter, or on Discord.
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HOW TO ENTER
When you are done with your song, either submit a Youtube link or a Soundcloud link to your work on this post. When you submit please follow the format:
Artist Name (ft. any guests): Game – Song LINK
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• If you don't submit an entry, but are featured as a guest on a track, you will get 50% of the points the submission gets.
  
• For the two above, I will give points based on what scored higher.
  
• Tracks are subject to rejection if they fail to meet the theme.
  
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Current submissions:

Hi, I have papillary thyroid carcinoma was diagnosed at 29 years old, and 30 now. My lab info 1 month after thyroidectomy in March of this year thyroglobulin <0.1 ng /ml and anti TG<1.0 units/ ml
Not two months later but on 05/18 it went from TG 0.7 and anti-TG 2.41 units/ml
No tests for metastasis to anything other than lymph nodes, but I’m mad. Still waiting to see if I need RAI. Why are my doctors not checking for spread other then my neck?

Hello. I created an account to post this, sorry in advance if I break any rules.
I have a diagnosed general anxiety disorder and ADHD. I have a lifelong set of anxiety symptoms that trend very closely to OCD, but my psychiatrist said he didn’t think the label would help.
I have made appointments to see my psychiatrist and also a new psychologist that specialises in OCD and perfectionism.
Those appointments are not for two weeks and I will lose my job if I can’t tone down these behaviours - please help!
A few examples - I am generally very perfectionistic in certain areas, and will go to extreme lengths for things to be or feel exactly how I imagined them to be. I have had periods (years) before where I am so terrified of food poisoning I can only eat dry self prepared foods, periods where I was convinced someone was dead every time they were away from me, I am often sure my son has leukaemia for no discernible reason.
General these “quirks” have been quite well under control, especially over the last 5-10 years.
However, I recently started a new high pressure, professional position. At the same time, I went no contact with my abusive Dad after an incident and my MIL suffered a freak accident at our home with catastrophic injuries.
I think everything happening at once has triggered an OCD episode. I am consumed by the need for my appearance and my work to be right. I will rewrite a sentence a hundred times. I am spending hours and hours formatting documents because I can’t think while the margins are unaligned. I check, and check, and check my work to “make sure” but I don’t even know what I’m making sure of?
The nature of my work is time sensitive and with hard deadlines. I am missing deadlines because I can’t stop checking. I am staying up working all night and hiding how many hours I’m doing from my boss and my family.
I need to look right before I can go somewhere. If I don’t have the right accessories or my hair won’t do what I need it to do, I just can’t leave. I am late for work every day trying to get my look right. The other day I had to go to the shop before work to buy the right belt and I was an hour late because I was waiting for the shops to open. Sometimes I will spend an hour getting ready but my hair doesn’t look right so I need to wash it and start again.
How do I get through until these appointments? Should I tell my boss the full situation? I’m worried they will think I’m a huge liability and let me go, I’m still in my probation period.
Thank you in advance!

(warning: I got a bit carried away so this is a little long.) It was a crisp early summer night.
You were walking home after a late shift at the local library. It was only job you’d managed to get so far as you’d only been in this new town for just under a month. Your boss seemed to be very insistent that you stay late to “organize”. However, there was a nervousness in her eyes a they peered at you through the thick prescription glasses she wore. But you needed the job and she wasn’t willing to budge so as hesitant as you were, you listened. You were beginning to regret that decision as you walked along the dark sidewalk. Woods on either side and only occasionally lit by a street lamp. The regret was mixed with an awful anxiety as you began hearing noises coming from the other side of the road. It sounded like a gathering of some sort. An 11 pm gathering. Maybe it was just a bunch of drunken idiots partying…on a Tuesday. You felt your stomach churn as a sense of dread grew stronger when you heard screams and cries being carried down from the direction where the sounds were coming from. As soon as your feet started moving, you ran as fast as your legs would carry you, trying to get far away from the noises. You looked behind you every so often, the screams and cries growing fainter with each time your shoe hit the cement. Unfortunately for you, that’s not where your shoes stay. Before you could even blink, you’re joiked into the air as something caught you around the middle. The impact against the pavement knocked the wind out of you as if you had been tackled by a football player. You didn’t dwell on it too long as you realized you were being carried through the air like a rabbit hunted by a large bird. You don’t dare look up at what had grabbed you, fearful that it may just stop your heart to see the being you’ve been captured by. The being that was currently bringing you deeper and deeper into the woods and closer to all the noise. You couldn’t help but let out a scream as you’re suddenly dropped to the ground. You flinched and squeezed your eyes shut, your whole body trembling like a leaf under the gaze of the now very silent group of hollering ‘people’. After a few moments one of them spoke.
“Ah, Claude. What the hell man? I told you not to pull this shit tonight.” The voice sounded human.
You cracked your eyes open to see a group of what looked to be young adults, gathered around you. Everyone was looking at you exept two.
“Yeah, yeah. I know. You’re kind doesn’t drain just anybody.” You look up to see the creature that brought you here. He was a young man, dark brown hair and gleaming blue eyes. He had a cocky smile stuck to his face. “But I’m not one of your kind-“
“Yeah, but you’re at one of our gatherings and we already have people to drain.” Your breath gets caught in your throat as your eyes land on three people laying motionless on the ground ahead of you. They don’t seem to be injured from what you can tell, but these people were most likely the source of the screams and cries you’d heard earlier. “It seems you just wanted to show off.” You hesitantly look just to your right and see a brown skinned brunette, looking annoyed.
“You’re misunderstanding me, Rin. I caught this one sneaking around just at the edge of the trees back there. And I figured, ‘What the hell? The more the merrier.’ so I figured I’d just..” He flashed sharp teeth when he smiled, picking you up, bringing your neck and head dangerously close to those sharp teeth.
“Put them down.” You were dropped. “We all heard the footsteps, Claude. They were running away. On the other side of the sidewalk.” The brunette sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose. ‘Claude’ slunk closer to the exasperated ’Rin’. “Aw come on. This gathering was boring and you know it. Now we have the new townie to play with. Plus, it’s not like we can let them go now.” Your heart sank and your stomach churned, you began to panic even more that you had already. If that was even possible. “Blaire, control your brother before I make you an only child.” A pale, light haired young woman emerged from the small group and pushed Claude aside as ‘Rin’ turned to you. “As much as I hate to say this, that idiot is right. You’ve seen…a lot and I can’t trust you not to say anything..” She mutters, stepping closer to you. “You’re going to have to come with me.”
“But-“
“It’s not up for debate, Claude. This gathering is now over.”
Hey, I hope you enjoyed my prompt. I’m looking to do a vampire role play that takes place in a small and secluded town. I have a general sense of how I want some things to go, just to keep things interesting. Mysteries to uncover, evils to overcome. I’m 20 so I’m looking for a partner that is at least 19 to play the human. I haven’t role-played for just under a year but I want to get back into it and I actually enjoyed writing this out so I decided to give it another shot. I mostly rp on Discord but I can do it on Reddit as well. This rp is open to all genders, so just PM me if you’re interested! Thanks for reading and I look forward to hearing from you!

Hello,
I am looking for geniune new friends and Rp partner and new friends. Indeed, I am looking for partners for Rp on the long term only. Please don't ghost, if you're busy let me know. Just as I would for you. I am looking for people who are sympathetic, kind, and understanding of my handicap.
I'm looking for people who would accept to play canon characters for my Oc women. I can do double Rp without any problem. Please don't play the canon too OOC. I would also make efforts on my side. We will always find an arrangement 🙂
I am French so please be patient with my English.
Some of my scenarios require the person to play multiple canon characters, as some of my Oc's are polyamorous. But in very unic case I'll be ok for you to play just one.
Lot of my prompts are alternative universe and I don't follow the canon stories 100%.
I am only looking for people 18+ because I am an adult myself. I'm only looking for adult Friends.
Here are the fandoms I'm looking for:
*****Video games *********

• Zelda: I'm looking for someone who would play Sidon, or a male zora for me. But also a bird man (I can't find the English name), or a yiga man. Or Dark Link.
  
• FF VII: I'm looking for Rufus, Tseng, Reno, Rude. Or Sephiroth.
  
• FF VIII: I'm looking for Biggs and Wedge. Or a male Oc Galbadian.
  
• FF XV: I'm looking for someone who would play Ardyn Izunia
  
• Animal crossing NH: I'm looking for Tom Nook
  
• Sonic: I am looking for Shadow
  
• Mario: I'm looking for Bowser or Luigi
  
• Rune factory 4: I'm looking for Dylas, Vishnal
  
• Rune factory 5: I'm looking for Murakumo, Ryker, Reinhard, Luca
  
• Monster hunter stories 2: I am looking for Zellard
  
• Resident Evil - I'm looking for Albert Wesker
  
• Metal Gear Solid I - I'm looking for Johnny Sasaki
  
• Devil My cry - I'm looking for Dante and/or Vergil
  
• Tales of Symphonia - I'm looking for someone to play a Oc desian (male)
  
• Tales of Xillia - I'm looking for someone to play Alvin, Wingul, Gaius
  
• Tales Of Zestria - I'm looking for someone to play Dezel, Zaveid
  

***Manga/Anime *********

• Demon Slayer: I'm looking for these characters Obanai Iguro, Tengen Usui, Kyojuro. An male demon Oc. Azaka, kokushibo,
  
• Spy x family : I'm looking for the twin brother Yu Briar
  
• Jujutsu Kaisen: I'm looking for these Satoru Gojo characters
  
• DBZ: I'm looking for these characters Cooler, Perfect Cell
  
• SNK: I'm looking for these characters Erwin and Levi
  
• Tokyo Ghoul: I am looking for Amon, Shuu
  
• One punch man: I'm looking for speed o sound sonic
  
• Hunter x hunter: I'm looking for Feitan
  
• Saint Seiya - I'm looking for Milo or Camu or Canon
  
• Chobit - I'm looking for a male persocon
  Shiki - I'm looking for someone to play a male Shiki or Mutô Tohru
  

*****Movies************ - TWD: I'm looking for Daryl Dixon
*****Caroons************

• TMNT 87: I am looking for Shredder
  
• Highlander (old cartoon): I'm looking for a hunter male Oc
  
• The simpsons: I'm looking for these characters Fat Tony, Legs, Louie, Johnny Tightlips
  

BLUF: Can I use the weight of items inside of my towed POV (not the weight of vehicle) to count towards my HHG weight?
I am unable to find guidance in the JTR other than using a privately owned trailer. Plan was to take before and after weights of my towed vehicle and the rental truck.

Are there any synastry aspects you personally hate to see in a synastry chart with a partner and are there any synastry chart aspects you’d personally love to see in a synastry chart with a partner.
When it comes to romance I absolutely hate Mars square Saturn. Lack/slow attraction, poor sex, lack of synchronization, irritation, controlling behaviour and passive aggression or outright aggression. I honestly think Sun square Saturn is a lighter aspect compared to this one. Most people I know born with Saturn in Aquarius (millennials) and Saturn in Leo (gen Z) have their Saturn squaring my sun and I enjoy that much more than having someone’s Saturn square my mars or vice-versa. Mars square Saturn feels like a slow burn, not to a romance but to a fist fight. I know to keep my distance once I see that aspect.
I also hate Ascendant square Pluto synastry. Imagine someone hating you but constantly watching your every move. You feel like you’re being spied on by a member of the Soviet Union. I have this with people born around my age, 3 years give or take. As the ascendant person you might feel excluded but also feel like the other person is trying to invade your privacy without any remorse. As a Scorpio, my privacy is everything. I’ve been able to get it past somewhat but I just keep my distance from people born in the same age range as me by not letting them know much about me. An astrologer on Twitter said this aspect can bring out hatred and cruelty, yeah no thanks, I already have it natally.
I hate seeing Jupiter square Saturn for myself and others. I won’t even elaborate too much. One person can block the blessings of the other, and one person can block the lessons of the other. Instead of a joyful Jupiter party, or Saturnian conference, it’s just a shit show that creates a lack of personal growth for both people.
I love seeing positive aspects (sextile, trine, conjunction) between Venus and Jupiter. It’s so sweet it almost gives you a toothache. I think this aspect in synastry (along with other good aspects) can make everyday feel like your birthday. There’s always an element of admiration, fun, care or celebration. Truly a love bug aspect.
Now, my favourite of all will always be moon conjunct ascendant/moon in 1st house synastry. This can make the other person in the relationship feel like your home away from home. I love when someone’s Virgo moon/Libra moon is in my 1st because they feel safe with me and they truly care for me. Everything is genuine. I think my Scorpio Venus loves the realness and honesty this aspect/overlay brings. You can’t lie to each other and you don’t want to.
In friendships I love Sun trines to personal aspects as well as Pluto trines to personal aspects. You get to be your complete self and the bond will become stronger the more authentic you both are. I think it can definitely create a sistebrother bond. You are with someone that actually wants you to be your true self at all times.
So I want to know, what aspects do you personally hate and love?

I’m F21 this all started just over a month ago. My first attack was “Diagnosed” as Supra-ventricular Tachycardia, It began with my ears ringing, then my heart started to pound against my chest hard and fast, my breathing became difficult like an elephant was sitting on my chest and I started to hyperventilate, the pressure spread to my whole torso, and I began to shake uncontrollably all over but mostly my legs. According to coworkers I went pale as a ghost but after reaching my company’s first aid room I was red as a tomato and sweating despite feeling cold. An ambulance took me to the ER where they did chest x-rays, 2 ECG’s 5 hours apart, and blood tests. My D-Dimer results caused suspicions of a blood clot so a Chest CT and a ultrasound of my right leg were ordered. After no unusual results I was referred to a cardiologist who booked me for a 24 hour Holter Monitor test, a Stress Test, and EKG and more blood tests. All of which have come back within normal ranges. Within this time I’ve had several more attacks of lesser concern than the first and new attacks of completely different symptoms. These attacks occur anytime in the day but very frequently at night and the symptoms include extreme nausea, fatigue, dizziness, loss of appetite, sensitivity to light and sound, numbness of nerves (when touching any part of my body it feels almost as if I don’t feel it) and pressure similar to your head being under water. I went to another physician to record these symptoms and they prescribed Teva-Betahistine saying these are more than likely unrelated and caused by fluid in my ear canals. I’m at my wits end and all of my doctors feel as though they are going to stop looking for what’s causing my symptoms. I’m not crazy and I can’t keep living with these symptoms not knowing what’s causing them. So please any suggestions of causes or tests I should consider would be very helpful. I will be more than willing to share any specific test results if it will help get to the bottom of this.

Looking for a bit lower than prices on Buff and other marketplaces
My Cashrep is equal to over $51,000USD in TF2 trades, some CSGO trades are listed there as well
I just started a CSGO rep thread, for the most part I have previous CSGO trades listed on my TF2 rep page, I didn't know there was an entire thread for CSGO trading rep too.
Not interested in Sticker Crafts
B/O: TF2 Keys at 1.60$
If there are no fees (US sellers) I can do $1.73 each TF2 Key.
Reputation:
$51,000 - $52,000 (USD) Cashrep. Over 28,500 TF2 keys. Primarily via PayPal and Zelle. The main TF2 website is not whitelisted, but that's where my cash reputation is able to be found. I have TF2 trading posts on my reddit account as well on tf2trade, so you can pretty easily check there.
CSGO rep thread: https://csgo-rep.com/profile/76561198061779536
Payment Methods:
US Residents - Crypto, Zelle, PayPal, Venmo, Cashapp, Wise, etc.
Non-US Residents - Crypto, PayPal, Wise, etc.
Rules:
No SteamRep marked Scammers or Scammer alts.
I can usually cover fees. For US residents there will probably be no fees.
Steam profile: https://steamcommunity.com/id/Trader4/
Trade link: https://steamcommunity.com/tradeoffenew/?partner=101513808&token=ue07mXJw
Buff store: https://buff.163.com/shop/U1091794626

21F, 128lbs, 5'7"
TL;DR: 1 night of very painful breathing while lying on either side of body, led to very sore chest and aching shoulder when I breathed the next morning and for rest of following day.
I have narcolepsy type 2 which I was on 6mg of Xyrem for, I also take 150mg Sunosi 30mg Vyvanse for daytime sleepiness and ADHD, as well as 100mg Pristiq and 300mg Welbutrin for depression. I have been on these same doses for 3 years now, the Xyrem I had been taking for 3 months. I have taken a sleep test that determined I was only about 0.3 below the marker for number of times I stopped breathing for a sleep apnea diagnosis.
About a week ago when I laid down on my side for bed, breathing quickly became painful. Every time I took a little too deep of a breath it felt like I was being stabbed in the middle of my chest in the area below where my collarbones meet. If I dared to breathe even the slightest bit deeper the pain would increase and streak out from the focal point towards one or both sides of my body. This happened no matter what side I was laying on.
This freaked me out, as even with the smallest breaths it still stung a little. It jolted me back to when I was a young girl, my memory is a blurry mess but I distinctly remember this happening at least a couple times back in elementary school. Those episodes would reemerge for weeks after, I really did not want to go back to that.
I immediately messaged my doctor through the portal, then did my best to get to sleep. Even with my first twice nightly 3mg dose of rape drug in my system it was difficult. It would ease somewhat if I laid on my back or stomach, but those weren't viable solutions either. I have never been able to sleep on my back or belly due to my stupid spine, my lower back will start aching within 5 minutes if I try and it quickly escalates. It sounds ridiculous but without a doubt I would prefer the painful side breathing than 2 days of my spine on fire.
I did fall asleep eventually. Next morning it no longer specifically hurt to breathe, but my chest was very sore. It felt more difficult to breathe at the start but that faded in an hour or so. What didn't fade was the continued aching of my shoulder when I breathed, which I didn't realize was also related the night before.
My lower back also hurt when I breathed, but that eventually went away. I did get a couple more of those sudden stab of pain in your back that you occasionally get when breathing deeply but that was only in the morning. (That is normal right? Like mini cramps or something, happen every couple weeks? Only last about a second?).
Don't really know where to go from here. My doctor answered my message later that day, he said he had no idea what it could be. This genuinely confused me as his title on his page is literally "Pulmonary, Internal Care and Sleep Medicine". How is he not the specialist for this?
That aside, the incident has not repeated since last week. I know it may not be the last of it though given my history. Just not sure how I should proceed, or if I should just drop it until it happens again. My parents have never been great on the medical side of things but we do have good coverage, I could potentially find another specialist. Not sure if it's even serious, I know breathing is important I'm just really bad at gauging the severity of medical issues.

After this club was released I wondered what other brands have a club that slots between their player's distance and players' irons. The p770 and jpx913 forged come to mind but I can't think of other brands that take advantage of that niece. I guess the less forgiveness you get the smaller the player base you appeal to but that still feels like a large market with fewer clubs than the rest. If you can think of any other brands or know the reason that it seems to be a less popular slot for manufactures lmk.

Switched into CS a bit late and did not realize the importance of internships and work experience until way too late. I'm graduating next semester with no internships, and I'm really bad with coming up with ideas, so when I got an idea that seemed not complete trash, I wanted to ask. I think my gpa is okay (3.7ish last I checked), but I wish I could have kept the 4.0 from before because now I'm worried that bad gpa makes it way harder (as opposed to already really hard because no work experience).
Basically, my idea would be a simple website where you just input a school supply and the website would search retailers like Target, Walmart, etc and return results from those stores, so you can quickly find the best price and quality supplies. I was thinking that could be the base functionality and then later on to flesh it out more I could add in a feature where you just input a file that contains the entire school supply list and it just does the same thing for the entire supply list. I'm not really sure where I would start with this, but again, I just wanted to field some opinions on whether this idea seems decent or not. Thanks for any help/feedback :)

Mouse is Deathadder Essential, anyway to set mouse light brightness on mouse buttons or using hypershift other than switching profiles so that I can use it without the software running like media controls?

So I 18m and her 18f dated in high school for 2 years, we had a strong and healthy relationship for the first 1 and 1/2, until we started arguing alot, and she wanted to go on a break and so we did. Maybe a month later she came back to me and we got back together, and we were doing good until she started picking random arguments out of nowhere and ended up breaking up with me again, but we got back together but we decided to take it slow so that we wouldn't argue alot anymore and it worked. But then she got caught smoking weed so her parents made her breakup with me. But we decided to still be in a talking relationship where we wouldn't talk to anybody else in any kind of relationship way. And so I did I made sure nit to talk to any other girls bc I thought I truly loved her. But I later found out that every time she broke up with me she would unblock her ex-boyfriend. And then when we would get back together she would block him. So I tried to get her to block him and keep him blocked and she said she would bc she loved me. So this morning while I was talking to her I get a notification on my phone. It was her ex. He texted me on Instagram asking if we were dating. So me being me I asked him why and he told me that they were talking alot recently. After I git the notification I stopped texting her so that way I could have some time to think. So I texted her abt maybe 10 mins ago as of writing this post. She responded by saying she would talk to me abt it later, bc she is at work and won't get off until 9 p.m. I told her that she can text whoever she wants to bc I can't do it with her anymore. I told her that she's just going to keep doing it no matter what I say. I don't want to be without her. She's everything I have I leave for basic training on Sunday and I'm scared to see what I'm going to come back to. What should I do?