Ive had some thoughts on the inherent nothingness of this rules discussion that commonly comes up regarding doubles and I'm going to first start off with a few examples and then go into how I don't think obsessive tweaking with doubling rules makes all that much sense. The reason I think its important to look at this is so much myth has been built up around what the effects of rules are, and I think people like Mr Easton have popularised ideas of seemingly simple obvious effects rules have without much experience playing under them or writing rules, when their effects are in reality deeper. A lot of it is similar to World Rugby, in an effort to make phase play attacking rugby easier and cut down on kicking, clamped down on contesting the ruck but the result ended up being attacking teams couldn't hold on for it as long without getting penalised and so started kicking shit ball away more. So without further ado heres my exploration of the concept:
So I was rewatching the matt easton sport fencing series of vids for a laugh and one thing that stuck out to me was how he seemed to think right of way was a better deterrent to double hits and afterblows than the epee short lockout time. This could make some level of sense re: old right of way from the 70s or earlier, but current foil and sabre have way more double hits (even if we aren't defining them by the lights but by the blade physically hitting the opposition within say 1 second) than epee. hell early to mid 2010s foil heavily rewarded being hit so then you could finish your action afterwards as the attacker without having to worry about being parried. This demonstrated, I think, a fundamental misunderstanding of systems he isn't really familiar with.
The second thing I think is misunderstanding what doubles in epee actually do. This idea of epee "rewarding" doubles to both fencers except in the most literal sense of awarding a point to each fencer is nonsensical. reward in a competition has to come at a cost to the other fencer, if it maintains the status quo it isnt reward. Now obviously in epee this is true, there is a slight reward for the fencer currently in front as it reduces the touches they need to score to get to 5 or 15 while keeping the margin the same. But fundamentally this is true for all doubling/afterblow rules that arent an elimination. Simply not awarding points does almost the same thing in a timed HEMA bout, despite the lack of theoretical gain there's little reason for the leading fencer not to end any pressure with a double if they can reliably time it. Subtracting a point to each fencer again more or less maintains the status quo (though its interesting more on that later). Indeed the only variation of consequences that outright discourages doubles are double elimination for one or multiple double hits, a system that for a dedicated fencing competition or set of rules is usually considered very harsh (not for modern pentathlon though).
The third element is criticising the 0.025 second lockout. Now this ones way more understandable bc it seems it would encourage trying to pull the trigger earlier and back your pace to get that first. And there is a limited amount of this. But in terms of playing for doubles, its the mechanic that makes it bloody hard, and by extension creates a lot of situations where a fencer chooses to parry or otherwise try to secure a single or just not getting hit over a potential double even if they are leading the risk just isn't worth it. The .025 lockout is actually what makes defence worth anything in epee. If you were in the lead and had .5 of a second you'd just be landing out of time counters for days if your own hit never came to fruition.
So all in all lets look at the results. You have, in epee rules, a system that requires you have to hit first at least once more than the opposition (inherently the same as any timed hema bout) and you can't afford to hit late, where doubles are next to meaningless with some niche tactical applications usually towards the end of the bout, and rarely match deciding unless its 14-13, and where its unreliable to either actively look for them or even use them as an insurance policy. As an epeeist who competes for my country I only really have a couple uses for doubles, if I'm ahead in the early or middle to keep momentum on my side and if I'm ahead in the late game to finish the bout. Even then I don't want them, every double I gain I'd've preferred a single. Even at my most incentivised, I want a single and would shrug at a double. Other fencers, especially lanky stophitters will have more stomach for them but fundamentally its still true, every double they've ever had they'd still prefer to be a single. You really aren't "incentivised" to double, you would much rather a single and when you are down you cant afford all too many of them.
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Now lets look at some of the primary hema rules regarding what times you have to land afterblows/doubles, and what the consequences are.
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Now first I want to sing the praises of the single step rule. Fantastic, gorgeous, if you can get out after scoring a valid hit, or stay in and give them no means of hitting in a footwork tempo that's good fencing and you deserve a single. This is far and away my favourite timing for HEMA afterblows/doubles. I think its a much better alternative to the 1 or 2 second systems I've seen, bc frankly once you've been hit, you have a whole second to score a valid hit, you should be able to finish that in at least a couple weapons. If I'm hit in smallsword, what is stopping me from running the other bloke down? I know for a fact I can cover half a fencing piste in 2 seconds with no starting momentum, HEMA circles are often much smaller. and smallswords are fast enough that you can draw the parry and remise easily so while this wont happen all the time it seems a nightmare to stop. Ive been hit in foil taking two steps after my counterattack landed with a .3 lockout time (less than a 3rd of the 1 second rule), and while while obviously a smallsword is slightly heavier, not so much that this would be difficult. Light cut and thrust swords also seems very exploitable with these approaches, its hard to know as so far I've only trained smallsword but from when I've felt and used them to play around with it seems the case. 2 seconds is frankly ridiculous, 1 is more understandable but again the loose time actually gives the hit fencer recourse to actively look for an afterblow or double with no repercussion.
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Now if we were to look at the rules for consequences in HEMA, I've usually seen no hit awarded, subtraction, or elimination. No hit awarded is functionally very similar to epee, especially if the bout is timed. Subtraction is the interesting one, in a timed bout again basically the same, but in one that isn't a leading fencer is losing sight of the goal score by letting them occur, and the losing fencer has to climb more too. The lead stays the same, but its definitely a more unpleasant prospect for both fencers, though arguably it again does create incentive for the losing fencer in particular to secure an afterblow out of time if they're technically within their step/1second or w/e (though very arguably especially in shorter times). Elimination is definitely a deterrent, but its also kind of unhinged. Certainly I think any tournament running this rule without some space allocated for fun sparring for eliminated fencers is doing itself a disservice, especially if this is applied in a preliminary poules system. first offence elimination is particularly harsh, but I think even after multiple infringements its just such a massive penalty for what's almost always a safe accident.
So in HEMA we have a combination of rules that run the gamut from I think very good (single step with no hits awarded in timed bouts or subtraction in untimed bouts), Quite poor (1 or 2 seconds no hit awarded in a timed bout is so open to abuse with lighter swords) to insane (2 seconds and double elimination would be very fun for a silly club comp but who in their right mind would sign up for that as a serious tournament). The best combination of these common HEMA rules are barely, if at all (I think its a matter of taste), better than epee, and what can we learn from this?
I think at the end of the day, so long as doubles are at best "okay", arent so long they can be actively sort after to nullify a score from the opposition, and that their biggest advantage if any is a minimal one for the fencer in the lead who would still very much prefer a single anyway, I say let the boys play.

Reading the Art of Dreaming we get aquainted with the mystical figure of the blue scout. Say or think what you want about it, you just won't get it until you' ve had an encounter with " her" yourself. The little girl which was stuck in the inorganic beings realm as bate doesn' t only pertain to Castaneda but to all of us. But one thing which should be clear is that Carlos is the one who had freed her from her chains. We have to believe that as readers, to take that at face value. So what does it mean that the blue scout is free? It means all of the bullshit is exposed, nobody can really pretend anymore and truly get away with it.. it means a bridge between our small body movements with our small mouth noises, but more importantly it means the freedom of an organic being from another dimension. It' s quite a claim, which from our comfortable position as modern humans with acces to all this kind of storytelling could also mean that we are at the end of a myth which has been playing out for thousands of years. So if "the blue scout" is organic, looks like a human but comes from.. well..outer space...where does that leave us? Who cares? The important thing I guess is that Carlos made us conscious of something which he has freed. Something abstact. When people go about with this picture in their heads of some blonde cutie who ended up killing herself.. it's like that's the " competition idea", the one our " imaginary" world thought of for lack of a better explanation.. yet it has no reality, no intent.. it stops there what would have been a dead end road had she not did what cc said.. to drive the car into infinity. There must be so many people still in that intent of her car, which has no problem whatsoever with dying. But that's not the end. Of course not, the little blue girl is eternal, far out and ancient. No problems there. But there is more. There is also a male version of the blue scout. This is not book deal mind. It's just another story which I would be happy to give for free but there is no one to listen to me. So it's nothing for now. Which is super good with me. Death is something you can get used to and yet never do which is like a safety catch. Don't get used to anything, especially your self, which isn't even really yourself but that calls for endless arguements. The blue scout left me a note before he kicked the bucket. I wonder if there is any true curiosity out there as to what he or she may have written, as a final goodbye.

Hi people of the UK,
Explanation turned out to be a bit long, sorry.
The rent on my room is half that of the average lowest rent for a comparable room in my city. The landlord said he would never raise the rent and has been true to his word despite rents shooting up all over. He's been good with repairs and upgrades. Genuinely nice guy, doesn't come around except to pick up payment, drop off a spare part, talk to tradesmen etc.
Payment is in cash always. Three tenants in the flat, only two on the lease (I'm one of them), no HMO license. So not legal obviously, but I've seen it as a win-win so far and landlord’s risk anyway. I love the flat and am broke/saving for future career, would be a real blow to have to leave at this stage.
A new boiler has been installed, my friend, an architect isn't pleased with the pipework for the following reasons:
The gas pipe runs hard-up underneath the floorboards, particularly behind my bedroom door as the room is entered. The floorboards haven't been secured back down and the gap between the boards and pipe is only about 2mm, the loose boards could easily be putting pressure on the pipe, they’re likely to be. The gas pipe runs approx 12-15m unvented. A gas leak could occur at a hard to access junction. The gas pipe isn’t protected. My friend was also banging on about having to check building regulations and had a few other grievances I didn't manage to write down.
He can be over-the-top sometimes by his own admission but I've had my doubts for ages as well, at least about the loose boards in front of the door. I know nothing about plumbing and gas lines etc but common sense says the setup is a risk. I’ve been hopping across that patch for a few months and recently wedged some paper under the skirting board to give the boards a tighter fit. There was also a leak at the gas meter in the bathroom a few months ago, my flatmates smelled it and a guy came out the same day and fixed it, don’t know if he was arranged by the landlord or not. The landlord isn't the installetradesman so I'm not saying he knows about these issues, he's probably none the wiser himself.
In terms of a CP12, there’s been no check that I know of since the installation of the boiler and I don’t know if the landlord has been diligent with yearly checks in the past. A gas safety check may have taken place at the time of installation, especially since things should've been installed by a gas-safe engineer anyway. I want a CP12 check because I assume that would verify the issues mentioned and/or other issues, and verify their adequate repair as being the landlord’s legal responsibility (CP12 is legally mandated anyway it’s not a frivolous thing).
I’m worried that if I point out various issues to the landlord without mentioning a CP12 check, he could just send a handyman mate over to do some quick fix which might still leave the flat unsafe and then I'd have to push for a CP12 anyway. Or possibly if he did produce a CP12, I'd be compelled to question it, based on what, my own suspicion, my mate's advice? Which is why I like the idea of getting my own gas-safe check done if that's possible as a tenant (cost isn't that bad).
If I ‘remind’ the landlord to get a CP12 or get my own check done and go to the landlord with the results (assuming that's possible as a tenant and the suspected issues are verified), is there a chance the landlord could get done for not having proper gas safety records? Could HMO stuff be relevant to the CP12 check etc?
Will the engineer just show up, do the job, point out the issues and mandatory fixes (assuming my friend is correct) and leave? Or could there be a can of worms that will fuck up the 'delicate' living situation if I’m not careful? Any advice? Is there another approach I'm missing?
Thanks.

Howdy Y'all! I'm a Qaballistic and Shamanic practitioner who has just ordered his first Spirit board and dowsing board/pendulum.
I've used ouija before effectively, both solo and with others, though I was a child then and had not yet discovered my faith. I've never used a dowsing board and pendulum before. In fact, I only learned of their existence days ago, and looking at it is what spurred me to order both.
I read a few thoughts on the primary differences in some various forums, but these were such wildly different claims that I dismissed them outright.
My assumption is that they can be used somewhat interchangably. One of the ideas raised that I did take seriously is that Ouija is designed for two operators, which fundamentally changes the energy dymanic. I could see this affecting solo use, but I have mostly used ouija solo and it always seemed just as effective as paired ouija. More so, in fact, because my partners always freaked out and would interrupt the process while I was trying to work.
So thank you in advance, occult community members, for your insights on the juxtaposition of these two tools.
tl;dr: Are there key differences to be aware of between the use of Ouija and the use of a dowsing board/pendulum?

Hello everyone,
I'm posting here in desperation because I have a problem that I can't seem to solve myself.
Some time ago, I was making a podcast to help people improve their French listening skills. Recently, I also started a YouTube channel to talk about one of my passions, board games.
For both of these activities, I have the same problem: you can hear too much of my breathing between sentences. Let me explain.
I use an Audio-Technica AT2020 microphone (with which I am very satisfied) associated with a Focusrite Scarlett Solo. Whether I place the microphone in front of my mouth (the most obvious), above or below my face, or next to it, you can hear my breathing a lot between sentences. The problem is that I am asthmatic and need to take deep breaths from time to time.
It is partly this problem that made me stop my podcast, because the editing time to remove these deep breaths was taking too much time and was frankly demotivating.
I would like to eventually resume the podcast and continue my new YouTube channel with better sound quality.
Yesterday, I wanted to record the gameplay of a game with Streamlabs OBS, I had noise reduction, noise gate, and gain turned on (reasonably) and after a game of more than an hour and a half, I realized, while watching the video, that you could still hear that damn breathing... (Mind you, I'm happy to breathe :D)
Would you please have any suggestions or ideas for settings that would allow me to reduce the sound of my breaths as much as possible?
Thanking you in advance
Jérôme

hi all,
RYO Paths seem to have become hard to find in the EU, so i'm looking for an alternative cycling sequential switch, to feed different CVs into a WORNG Vector Space - a switch which has a nice easy way to manually move backwards/forwards (like the RYO Paths can). Either a knob or buttons. And 4 in and 4 outs.
any ideas? I've started having a look through modular grid, but not yet seen any direct alternatives
any advice welcome, thanks:)
edit:
perhaps the Vice Virga from Noise Engineering might do the job? (and some)...
https://schneidersladen.de/en/noise-engineering-vice-virga

Sailing has a lot of potential, and through sailing we could see a ton of great new updates to the game that have already been suggested.
What is currently lacking however, is the very basic fundamentals of the skill. How do you train the skill?
Most suggestions so far feel more like activities, rewards and fun things to do, rather than core skill training. These things are all great in their own way, but they are better suited as enjoyable side-tracks and future expansion of the skill.
 
I've tried to come up with a few skill training concepts that would try to provide the feeling of "this is a skill" to sailing, that it currently lacks. I'd also like you to share your ideas, and maybe we could some up with something that makes sailing truly feel like a skill.
 
Port Pilot: As a port pilot, your job is to safely guide ships in to, and out of ports. Merchant ships come from all over, many of whom lack intricate knowledge of the harbour and its surroundings.
Core skill training concept: you row out to board the incoming ship, you navigate it safely through the harbour and you dock at the port, xp awarded. Rinse and repeat.
Likewise if you guide a ship out of port, you board the ship, navigate safely through the harbour out to open waters, you then row back to port, xp awarded. Rinse and repeat.
This part of training the skill can be seen as comparable to agility, where you have to avoid hazards and navigate around obstacles.
As you level up, you unlock the ability to guide bigger and more complicated ships, and with enough experience earned, you unlock new and more difficult ports to operate from.
 
Lighthouses: At every harbour, there could be one or more lighthouse in need of construction. Constructing these would be a one-time job, awarding a large amount of xp. As you level up sailing and unlock new ports, you'd gain access to new lighthouses to construct. These lighthouses would then provide you with a new way of training sailing, lighthouse runs.
 
Lighthouse runs: Similar to farm runs and birdhouse runs, lighthouse runs would be a time-gated training method where you travel out to the lighthouses you have constructed and refuel them, restock them and maintain machinery etc, with xp awarded for every lighthouse visited. These runs would be quick to complete and perfect for those just looking to train a bit of sailing passively while doing other content.
 
Loadmaster: Not all skill training and xp has to be awarded at sea, there's more to ships than just navigating them. This skill training activity could be performed on land, at the ports. Safely loading and unloading cargo from the ships to prevent them from listing due to uneven placement and weight distribution is equally important, and this minigame-esque training method could perhaps see you utilizing machinery, comparable to giant's foundry.

I am wanting to adopt four rats, but am wondering if it’s a bad idea given my situation and need some advice. I rent the main room in a house with other smaller rooms rented by other people. So my only private space is in my room where all my pets live. I have a cat and a hamster that live with me. My cat is 12 and shows very little interest in my hamster and is generally pretty low energy now that she’s gotten older. My hamster lives in a bin cage so the cat has no way to access him since there are no bars. (Although she hasn’t even tried) I am wanting to get a single critter nation for the rats, which I know has bars so theoretically there is a little more of a risk. Is it a bad idea to get rats? I wouldn’t let the rats out in my room with the cat, I would bring them out of the room to the shower room to let them run around.

Hello there.
I, like you (I assume), am looking for a writing partner. Slice of Life, Low Fantasy, and Science Fiction are … as the young kids say … my jam. I do not care for Fandoms, although I do not mind drawing inspiration from them. Original characters only. As far as those themes are concerned, I am okay with them, but prefer not to get lost in them. I am perfectly fine with, and even prefer, fade-to-black.
I have been writing, on my own, since I was 18 (I am in my 30s now), and have been writing collaboratively for the past 5 or 6 years. I honestly can't remember. I use Discord as my writing medium, consider myself literate, and strive for multiple paragraphs per reply. I have a deep love for world-building and hope to create multiple reference boards filled with realistic imagery. I expect my partner to have similar abilities and interests.
If you think you might be interested, please reach out. You can expect the following:

1. Determine compatibility.
2. Debate ideas.
3. Settle on an idea.
4. World build.
5. Write!

While I understand ghosting, but don’t appreciate it, I can understand it much more before it reaches the fifth step. Nothing is more demoralizing than losing a partner several posts into a story. Please know that I am a partner that is more than willing to come back and revisit any one of these steps if something isn't flowing as expected.
I hope to hear from some of you soon!

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Creed: Rise to Glory™	2.1 TF2	$4.53 PP	-
Crusader Kings II: Royal Collection	2.5 TF2	$5.55 PP	-
Crusader Kings III	3.7 TF2	$8.1 PP	-
Crysis® 2 Maximum Edition	0.8 TF2	$1.76 PP	-
Cultist Simulator Anthology Edition	2.2 TF2	$4.89 PP	-
Cultist Simulator	0.6 TF2	$1.41 PP	-
DEATHLOOP	1.8 TF2	$3.88 PP	-
DIRT 5	3.7 TF2	$8.06 PP	-
DMC - Devil May Cry	0.5 TF2	$1.16 PP	-
DRAGON BALL FIGHTERZ - Ultimate Edition	3.5 TF2	$7.76 PP	-
DRAGON BALL XENOVERSE 2	1.6 TF2	$3.42 PP	-
DRAGONBALL XENOVERSE Bundle Edition	1.1 TF2	$2.32 PP	-
DRIFT21	0.5 TF2	$1.03 PP	-
Dark Deity	0.4 TF2	$0.91 PP	-
Dark Souls II: Scholar of the First Sin	7.8 TF2	$17.12 PP	-
Dark Souls III	10.7 TF2	$23.63 PP	-
Darkest Dungeon	0.6 TF2	$1.3 PP	-
Darksiders Genesis	0.8 TF2	$1.77 PP	-
Darksiders II Deathinitive Edition	0.5 TF2	$1.01 PP	-
Darksiders III	0.8 TF2	$1.76 PP	-
Day of the Tentacle Remastered	0.4 TF2	$0.92 PP	-
DayZ	5.6 TF2	$12.41 PP	-
Dead Estate	1.5 TF2	$3.23 PP	-
Dead Island - Definitive Edition	0.8 TF2	$1.78 PP	-
Dead Island Definitive Collection	1.5 TF2	$3.27 PP	-
Dead Island Riptide - Definitive Edition	0.7 TF2	$1.55 PP	-
Dead Rising 2: Off the Record	1.0 TF2	$2.16 PP	-
Dead Rising 3 Apocalypse Edition	1.9 TF2	$4.09 PP	-
Dead Rising 4	0.8 TF2	$1.71 PP	-
Dead Rising	0.9 TF2	$2.0 PP	-
Dead Rising® 2	1.0 TF2	$2.1 PP	-
Death Road to Canada	0.6 TF2	$1.21 PP	-
Death's Gambit	0.7 TF2	$1.44 PP	-
Deep Rock Galactic	3.6 TF2	$8.02 PP	-
Descenders	0.4 TF2	$0.9 PP	-
Desperados III	1.0 TF2	$2.24 PP	-
Destroy All Humans	0.6 TF2	$1.41 PP	-
Deus Ex: Human Revolution - Director's Cut	0.6 TF2	$1.25 PP	-
Deus Ex: Mankind Divided	1.0 TF2	$2.23 PP	-
Devil May Cry HD Collection	1.3 TF2	$2.9 PP	-
Devil May Cry® 4 Special Edition	1.3 TF2	$2.91 PP	-
Dinosaur Fossil Hunter	0.4 TF2	$0.92 PP	-
Distance	0.7 TF2	$1.53 PP	-
Distant Worlds: Universe	0.6 TF2	$1.3 PP	-
Doom Eternal	1.9 TF2	$4.19 PP	-
Door Kickers	1.0 TF2	$2.2 PP	-
Dorfromantik	1.8 TF2	$4.04 PP	-
Dragon Ball FighterZ	1.6 TF2	$3.54 PP	-
Dragons Dogma - Dark Arisen	0.8 TF2	$1.67 PP	-
Drake Hollow	0.4 TF2	$0.91 PP	-
Drone Swarm	0.4 TF2	$0.98 PP	-
Duck Game	2.1 TF2	$4.7 PP	-
Dungeon Defenders: Awakened	3.2 TF2	$7.08 PP	-
Dungreed	0.8 TF2	$1.83 PP	-
Duskers	0.5 TF2	$0.99 PP	-
EARTH DEFENSE FORCE 4.1 The Shadow of New Despair	2.1 TF2	$4.63 PP	-
ELEX	0.7 TF2	$1.5 PP	-
EVERSPACE™	0.7 TF2	$1.6 PP	-
Elite: Dangerous	1.0 TF2	$2.25 PP	-
Endzone - A World Apart	0.6 TF2	$1.34 PP	-
Europa Universalis IV	1.0 TF2	$2.22 PP	-
Exanima	2.2 TF2	$4.82 PP	-
FTL: Faster Than Light	1.1 TF2	$2.51 PP	-
Fable Anniversary	2.5 TF2	$5.56 PP	-
Fallout 76	1.5 TF2	$3.36 PP	-
Fantasy General II	0.4 TF2	$0.97 PP	-
Farming Simulator 17	0.5 TF2	$1.11 PP	-
Firefighting Simulator - The Squad	3.8 TF2	$8.26 PP	-
First Class Trouble	0.4 TF2	$0.85 PP	-
For The King	0.8 TF2	$1.81 PP	-
Forager	1.3 TF2	$2.84 PP	-
Forts	2.5 TF2	$5.54 PP	-
Friday the 13th: The Game	2.2 TF2	$4.89 PP	-
Frostpunk	1.1 TF2	$2.48 PP	-
Full Metal Furies	0.5 TF2	$1.15 PP	-
Furi	0.7 TF2	$1.5 PP	-
GOD EATER 2 Rage Burst	1.0 TF2	$2.24 PP	-
GRID - Ultimate	0.9 TF2	$2.04 PP	-
GRIS	0.4 TF2	$0.85 PP	-
Gamedec	0.4 TF2	$0.77 PP	-
Gang Beasts	2.8 TF2	$6.15 PP	-
Garden Paws	0.8 TF2	$1.77 PP	-
Gas Station Simulator	1.4 TF2	$3.05 PP	-
Gears 5	4.3 TF2	$9.54 PP	-
Gears Tactics	4.0 TF2	$8.86 PP	-
Generation Zero®	1.1 TF2	$2.37 PP	-
Genital Jousting	0.5 TF2	$1.09 PP	-
Goat Simulator	0.4 TF2	$0.92 PP	-
Godlike Burger	1.3 TF2	$2.89 PP	-
Golf With Your Friends	1.1 TF2	$2.38 PP	-
Gordian Quest	1.6 TF2	$3.51 PP	-
Gotham Knights	4.8 TF2	$10.54 PP	-
GreedFall	0.6 TF2	$1.34 PP	-
Grim Dawn	2.1 TF2	$4.61 PP	-
Guacamelee! 2	0.6 TF2	$1.27 PP	-
HITMAN™2 Gold Edition	2.7 TF2	$5.83 PP	-
HIVESWAP: Act 2	1.9 TF2	$4.16 PP	-
HOT WHEELS UNLEASHED™	1.4 TF2	$3.16 PP	-
Hacknet	0.4 TF2	$0.91 PP	-
Haiku, the Robot	1.4 TF2	$3.14 PP	-
Hard Bullet	0.9 TF2	$1.97 PP	-
Hearts of Iron III Collection	0.5 TF2	$1.04 PP	-
Hearts of Iron IV: Battle for the Bosporus	1.4 TF2	$3.08 PP	-
Hearts of Iron IV: Cadet Edition	1.5 TF2	$3.36 PP	-
Hearts of Iron IV: Death or Dishonor	0.8 TF2	$1.72 PP	-
Hearts of Iron IV: Waking the Tiger	1.4 TF2	$2.99 PP	-
Heave Ho	0.5 TF2	$1.15 PP	-
Heavy Rain	1.6 TF2	$3.62 PP	-
Hell Let Loose	7.4 TF2	$16.18 PP	-
Hellblade: Senua's Sacrifice	0.8 TF2 Refer To My Other Thread	$1.72 PP Refer To My Other Thread	Humble Heroines: Warriors, Dreamers, and God Slayers
Hello, Neighbor!	0.4 TF2	$0.91 PP	-
Hero's Hour	1.0 TF2 Refer To My Other Thread	$2.19 PP Refer To My Other Thread	Humble Choice (Mar 2023)
Heroes of Hammerwatch	0.5 TF2	$1.13 PP	-
Hitman Absolution	0.7 TF2	$1.6 PP	-
Hitman Blood Money	0.6 TF2	$1.35 PP	-
Hitman Game of the Year Edition	1.2 TF2	$2.53 PP	-
Hollow Knight	2.2 TF2	$4.89 PP	-
Homefront	0.4 TF2	$0.98 PP	-
Homefront: The Revolution	0.8 TF2	$1.78 PP	-
Homeworld: Deserts of Kharak	0.4 TF2	$0.78 PP	-
Hotline Miami 2: Wrong Number Digital Special Edition	0.5 TF2	$1.09 PP	-
Hotline Miami 2: Wrong Number	0.5 TF2	$1.0 PP	-
Hotline Miami	0.7 TF2	$1.57 PP	-
House Flipper VR	0.8 TF2	$1.76 PP	-
House Flipper	2.4 TF2	$5.23 PP	-
Human: Fall Flat	0.7 TF2	$1.51 PP	-
HuniePop	0.4 TF2	$0.9 PP	-
Huntdown	1.2 TF2	$2.55 PP	-
Hurtworld	1.9 TF2	$4.09 PP	-
Hyper Light Drifter	0.8 TF2	$1.84 PP	-
Hypnospace Outlaw	0.7 TF2	$1.58 PP	-
I Am Fish	0.4 TF2	$0.83 PP	-
I Expect You To Die	1.2 TF2	$2.7 PP	-
I-NFECTED	5.6 TF2	$12.38 PP	-
IL-2 Sturmovik™: 1946	0.8 TF2	$1.77 PP	-
INSURGENCY	1.5 TF2	$3.26 PP	-
Imperator: Rome Deluxe Edition	0.7 TF2	$1.58 PP	-
Imperator: Rome	0.5 TF2	$1.01 PP	-
Injustice 2 Legendary Edition	1.1 TF2	$2.44 PP	-
Injustice 2	0.7 TF2	$1.51 PP	-
Injustice: Gods Among Us - Ultimate Edition	0.6 TF2	$1.24 PP	-
Into the Radius VR	4.9 TF2	$10.76 PP	-
Ion Fury	1.4 TF2	$3.09 PP	-
Iron Harvest	0.8 TF2	$1.83 PP	-
Jalopy	0.5 TF2	$1.06 PP	-
Job Simulator	8.3 TF2	$18.19 PP	-
Jurassic World Evolution 2	1.8 TF2 Refer To My Other Thread	$3.87 PP Refer To My Other Thread	Humble Choice (Mar 2023)
Jurassic World Evolution	0.4 TF2	$0.93 PP	-
Just Cause 2	0.5 TF2	$1.04 PP	-
Just Cause 3 XXL Edition	1.0 TF2	$2.13 PP	-
Just Cause 4: Complete Edition	1.0 TF2	$2.09 PP	-
KartKraft	2.8 TF2	$6.22 PP	-
Katamari Damacy REROLL	1.0 TF2	$2.23 PP	-
Katana ZERO	1.0 TF2	$2.11 PP	-
Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes	2.4 TF2	$5.29 PP	-
Kerbal Space Program	0.9 TF2	$1.88 PP	-
Killer Instinct	5.6 TF2	$12.21 PP	-
Killing Floor 2 Digital Deluxe Edition	0.9 TF2	$1.87 PP	-
Killing Floor 2	0.5 TF2	$1.2 PP	-
Killing Floor	0.5 TF2	$1.17 PP	-
Kingdom Come: Deliverance	1.4 TF2	$3.0 PP	-
Kingdom: Two Crowns	0.7 TF2	$1.58 PP	-
Kingdoms of Amalur: Re-Reckoning	0.9 TF2	$1.88 PP	-
King’s Bounty : Ultimate Edition	0.8 TF2	$1.73 PP	-
LEGO Batman 3: Beyond Gotham Premium Edition	0.5 TF2	$1.07 PP	-
LEGO Batman 3: Beyond Gotham	0.4 TF2	$0.82 PP	-
LEGO Batman Trilogy	1.3 TF2	$2.93 PP	-
LEGO Harry Potter: Years 1-4	0.5 TF2	$1.03 PP	-
LEGO Harry Potter: Years 5-7	0.7 TF2	$1.48 PP	-
LEGO Lord of the Rings	0.4 TF2	$0.95 PP	-
LEGO Star Wars III: The Clone Wars	0.5 TF2	$1.01 PP	-
LEGO Star Wars: The Complete Saga	0.5 TF2	$1.04 PP	-
LEGO® City Undercover	0.7 TF2	$1.53 PP	-
LEGO® DC Super-Villains Deluxe Edition	1.8 TF2	$3.9 PP	-
LEGO® DC Super-Villains	0.4 TF2	$0.83 PP	-
LEGO® Jurassic World™	0.4 TF2	$0.82 PP	-
LEGO® MARVEL's Avengers	0.3 TF2	$0.76 PP	-
LEGO® Marvel Super Heroes 2 Deluxe Edition	1.1 TF2	$2.34 PP	-
LEGO® Marvel Super Heroes 2	0.4 TF2	$0.9 PP	-
LEGO® Ninjago® Movie Video Game	0.3 TF2	$0.71 PP	-
LEGO® Star Wars™: The Force Awakens	0.5 TF2	$1.18 PP	-
LEGO® Worlds	1.6 TF2	$3.6 PP	-
Labyrinth City: Pierre the Maze Detective	0.7 TF2	$1.46 PP	-
Last Oasis	0.5 TF2	$1.12 PP	-
Late Shift	0.4 TF2	$0.97 PP	-
Layers of Fear 2	3.2 TF2	$7.1 PP	-
Layers of Fear	0.5 TF2	$1.11 PP	-
Legion TD 2	0.9 TF2	$1.97 PP	-
Len's Island	2.8 TF2	$6.23 PP	-
Lethal League Blaze	0.9 TF2	$1.91 PP	-
Lethal League	0.7 TF2	$1.54 PP	-
Library Of Ruina	2.9 TF2	$6.36 PP	-
Life is Feudal: Your Own	0.4 TF2	$0.83 PP	-
Little Misfortune	3.1 TF2	$6.89 PP	-
Little Nightmares Complete Edition	1.5 TF2	$3.26 PP	-
Little Nightmares	0.7 TF2	$1.64 PP	-
Lobotomy Corporation Monster Management Simulation	4.6 TF2	$10.21 PP	-
Lords of the Fallen Game of the Year Edition	0.8 TF2	$1.7 PP	-
Lost Ember	1.2 TF2	$2.73 PP	-
Lost Planet™: Extreme Condition	0.8 TF2	$1.81 PP	-
Luck be a Landlord	2.5 TF2	$5.45 PP	-
METAL GEAR SOLID V: THE PHANTOM PAIN	0.7 TF2	$1.55 PP	-
METAL GEAR SOLID V: The Definitive Experience	1.2 TF2	$2.55 PP	-
MORTAL KOMBAT 11	1.6 TF2	$3.44 PP	-
MX vs ATV Reflex	0.4 TF2	$0.8 PP	-
MX vs. ATV Unleashed	0.3 TF2	$0.73 PP	-
Mad Max	1.2 TF2	$2.58 PP	-
Mafia II: Definitive Edition	1.2 TF2	$2.62 PP	-
Mafia III: Definitive Edition	1.9 TF2	$4.09 PP	-
Mafia: Definitive Edition	2.1 TF2	$4.54 PP	-
Maneater	0.5 TF2	$1.08 PP	-
Manhunt	1.1 TF2	$2.52 PP	-
Mars Horizon	0.9 TF2	$2.04 PP	-
Marvel vs. Capcom: Infinite - Deluxe Edition	2.6 TF2	$5.79 PP	-
Mass Effect™ Legendary Edition	6.2 TF2	$13.54 PP	-
Max Payne 2: The Fall of Max Payne	0.5 TF2	$1.2 PP	-
Max Payne	0.8 TF2	$1.85 PP	-
MechWarrior 5: Mercenaries	2.2 TF2	$4.84 PP	-
Medal of Honor	1.9 TF2	$4.14 PP	-
Mega Man Legacy Collection	0.6 TF2	$1.25 PP	-
Men of War: Assault Squad 2 - Deluxe Edition	1.0 TF2	$2.21 PP	-
Men of War: Assault Squad 2 War Chest Edition	1.0 TF2	$2.24 PP	-
Men of War: Assault Squad 2	1.0 TF2	$2.24 PP	-
Messenger	0.4 TF2	$0.9 PP	-
Metro 2033 Redux	0.6 TF2	$1.31 PP	-
Metro Exodus	1.4 TF2	$3.04 PP	-
Metro Redux Bundle	1.0 TF2	$2.3 PP	-
Metro: Last Light Redux	1.0 TF2	$2.23 PP	-
Middle-earth: Shadow of Mordor Game of the Year Edition	0.8 TF2	$1.65 PP	-
Middle-earth™: Shadow of War™	0.7 TF2	$1.44 PP	-
Middleearth Shadow of War Definitive Edition	1.1 TF2	$2.48 PP	-
Mini Ninjas	0.4 TF2	$0.94 PP	-
Mirror's Edge	2.2 TF2	$4.85 PP	-
Miscreated	1.3 TF2	$2.88 PP	-
Monster Hunter: World	3.2 TF2	$6.96 PP	-
Monster Sanctuary	0.4 TF2	$0.96 PP	-
Monster Train	0.4 TF2	$0.77 PP	-
Moonlighter	0.4 TF2	$0.93 PP	-
Moons of Madness	1.7 TF2	$3.74 PP	-
Mordhau	1.6 TF2	$3.41 PP	-
Mortal Kombat X	0.7 TF2	$1.55 PP	-
Mortal Kombat XL	0.9 TF2	$1.88 PP	-
Mortal Shell	1.4 TF2	$3.18 PP	-
Motorcycle Mechanic Simulator 2021	0.8 TF2	$1.76 PP	-
Motorsport Manager	1.0 TF2	$2.24 PP	-
Move or Die	0.9 TF2	$2.0 PP	-
Moving Out	0.7 TF2	$1.49 PP	-
Mutant Year Zero: Road to Eden - Deluxe Edition	1.4 TF2	$3.04 PP	-
Mutant Year Zero: Road to Eden	0.9 TF2	$1.93 PP	-
My Friend Pedro	0.6 TF2	$1.27 PP	-
My Time At Portia	0.4 TF2	$0.96 PP	-
NARUTO SHIPPUDEN: Ultimate Ninja STORM 4 Road to Boruto	2.1 TF2	$4.72 PP	-
NASCAR Heat 5 - Ultimate Edition	0.4 TF2	$0.92 PP	-
Naruto Shippuden: Ultimate Ninja Storm 4	1.6 TF2	$3.59 PP	-
Naruto to Boruto Shinobi Striker - Deluxe Edition	1.2 TF2	$2.63 PP	-
Naruto to Boruto Shinobi Striker	0.4 TF2	$0.82 PP	-
Necromunda: Hired Gun	0.7 TF2	$1.56 PP	-
Neon Abyss	0.4 TF2	$0.97 PP	-
Ni no Kuni™ II: Revenant Kingdom - The Prince's Edition	2.4 TF2	$5.33 PP	-
Nine Parchments	1.4 TF2	$3.0 PP	-
No Time to Relax	1.6 TF2	$3.57 PP	-
Northgard	3.9 TF2	$8.55 PP	-
Not For Broadcast	0.5 TF2	$1.01 PP	-
ONE PIECE BURNING BLOOD	0.8 TF2	$1.69 PP	-
ONE PIECE PIRATE WARRIORS 3 Gold Edition	1.0 TF2	$2.13 PP	-
Offworld Trading Company™	0.7 TF2	$1.44 PP	-
One Step From Eden	0.4 TF2	$0.97 PP	-
Opus Magnum	1.2 TF2	$2.56 PP	-
Orcs Must Die! 3	1.6 TF2	$3.42 PP	-
Outlast 2	0.4 TF2	$0.91 PP	-
Outlast	0.4 TF2	$0.95 PP	-
Outward	1.3 TF2	$2.91 PP	-
Overcooked	0.7 TF2	$1.49 PP	-
Overcooked! 2	1.4 TF2	$3.1 PP	-
Overgrowth	0.5 TF2	$1.08 PP	-
Overlord II	0.4 TF2	$0.84 PP	-
PC Building Simulator	0.8 TF2	$1.74 PP	-
Paint the Town Red	1.9 TF2	$4.23 PP	-
Parkitect	4.3 TF2	$9.55 PP	-
Pathfinder: Kingmaker - Enhanced Plus Edition	1.0 TF2	$2.11 PP	-
Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous	0.9 TF2	$1.89 PP	-
Pathologic 2	0.7 TF2	$1.46 PP	-
Per Aspera	0.7 TF2	$1.52 PP	-
Phantom Doctrine	0.3 TF2	$0.73 PP	-
Pillars of Eternity Definitive Edition	0.7 TF2	$1.55 PP	-
Pistol Whip	5.6 TF2	$12.21 PP	-
Plague Inc: Evolved	1.5 TF2	$3.27 PP	-
Planescape: Torment: Enhanced Edition	0.4 TF2	$0.79 PP	-
Planet Coaster	1.6 TF2	$3.48 PP	-
Planet Zoo	1.7 TF2	$3.79 PP	-
Planetary Annihilation: TITANS	4.3 TF2	$9.55 PP	-
Portal Knights	0.8 TF2	$1.76 PP	-
Power Rangers: Battle for the Grid	3.3 TF2	$7.15 PP	-
PowerBeatsVR	0.9 TF2	$1.97 PP	-
PowerSlave Exhumed	1.6 TF2	$3.51 PP	-
Praey for the Gods	0.6 TF2 Refer To My Other Thread	$1.32 PP Refer To My Other Thread	Humble Heroines: Warriors, Dreamers, and God Slayers
Prehistoric Kingdom	1.3 TF2	$2.9 PP	-
Pro Cycling Manager 2019	1.2 TF2	$2.58 PP	-
Project Cars 3	10.1 TF2	$22.11 PP	-
Project Hospital	2.2 TF2	$4.83 PP	-
Project Wingman	1.0 TF2	$2.24 PP	-
Project Winter	0.9 TF2	$1.97 PP	-
Propnight	0.6 TF2 Refer To My Other Thread	$1.36 PP Refer To My Other Thread	Scary Games to Play in the Dark Bundle
Pumpkin Jack	0.4 TF2	$0.9 PP	-
Quantum Break	1.3 TF2	$2.91 PP	-
RESIDENT EVIL 3	2.0 TF2	$4.41 PP	-
RUGBY 20	1.2 TF2	$2.55 PP	-
RUINER	0.4 TF2	$0.84 PP	-
RWBY: Grimm Eclipse	3.0 TF2	$6.56 PP	-
Ragnaröck	3.1 TF2	$6.8 PP	-
Rain World	1.2 TF2	$2.57 PP	-
Raw Data	1.0 TF2	$2.13 PP	-
Re:Legend	1.0 TF2	$2.12 PP	-
Red Faction Guerrilla Re-Mars-tered	0.4 TF2	$0.95 PP	-
Red Matter	4.0 TF2	$8.83 PP	-
Resident Evil / biohazard HD REMASTER	0.8 TF2	$1.86 PP	-
Resident Evil 0 / biohazard 0 HD Remaster	0.6 TF2	$1.3 PP	-
Resident Evil 5 GOLD Edition	1.3 TF2	$2.83 PP	-
Resident Evil 5	0.9 TF2	$1.92 PP	-
Resident Evil 6	1.3 TF2	$2.82 PP	-
Resident Evil: Revelations 2 Deluxe Edition	1.9 TF2	$4.23 PP	-
Resident Evil: Revelations	0.5 TF2	$1.02 PP	-
Retro Machina	0.5 TF2	$1.01 PP	-
Risen 2 Dark Waters	0.4 TF2	$0.88 PP	-
Rising Storm 2: Vietnam	0.5 TF2	$1.04 PP	-
River City Girls	1.3 TF2	$2.91 PP	-
Rogue Heroes: Ruins of Tasos	0.5 TF2	$1.1 PP	-
RollerCoaster Tycoon Deluxe	1.0 TF2	$2.1 PP	-
Rollercoaster Tycoon 2: Triple Thrill Pack	1.1 TF2	$2.51 PP	-
Rubber Bandits	0.7 TF2	$1.5 PP	-
Running with Rifles	1.8 TF2	$3.86 PP	-
Ryse: Son of Rome	1.6 TF2	$3.49 PP	-
SCUM	2.6 TF2	$5.72 PP	-
SHENZHEN I/O	0.4 TF2	$0.97 PP	-
SOMA	1.9 TF2	$4.19 PP	-
SONG OF HORROR Complete Edition	0.4 TF2	$0.98 PP	-
STAR WARS® THE FORCE UNLEASHED II	0.8 TF2	$1.7 PP	-
STAR WARS™: Squadrons	1.9 TF2	$4.17 PP	-
SUPERHOT VR	2.0 TF2	$4.49 PP	-
SUPERHOT	0.7 TF2	$1.57 PP	-
SUPERHOT: MIND CONTROL DELETE	0.4 TF2	$0.87 PP	-
Sable	0.5 TF2 Refer To My Other Thread	$1.04 PP Refer To My Other Thread	Humble Heroines: Warriors, Dreamers, and God Slayers
Saint's Row The Third Remastered	2.0 TF2	$4.48 PP	-
Saints Row 2	0.6 TF2	$1.23 PP	-
Saints Row IV	0.8 TF2	$1.82 PP	-
Saints Row: The Third	0.6 TF2	$1.29 PP	-
Sanctum 2	0.5 TF2	$1.08 PP	-
Satisfactory	5.8 TF2	$12.71 PP	-
Scarlet Nexus	2.7 TF2	$5.84 PP	-
Secret Neighbor	0.5 TF2	$1.14 PP	-
Serious Sam 2	0.7 TF2	$1.53 PP	-
Serious Sam 4	2.5 TF2	$5.47 PP	-
Serious Sam: Siberian Mayhem	2.0 TF2	$4.5 PP	-
Severed Steel	1.2 TF2	$2.58 PP	-
Shadow Man Remastered	0.9 TF2	$1.98 PP	-
Shadow Warrior 2	0.8 TF2	$1.73 PP	-
Shadow of the Tomb Raider	3.1 TF2	$6.78 PP	-
Shantae and the Pirate's Curse	0.5 TF2	$1.18 PP	-
Shenmue 3	0.7 TF2	$1.43 PP	-
Shenmue I & II	0.7 TF2	$1.43 PP	-
Shining Resonance Refrain	0.4 TF2	$0.94 PP	-
Sid Meier's Civilization V	0.8 TF2	$1.65 PP	-
Sid Meier's Civilization VI : Platinum Edition	2.7 TF2	$5.87 PP	-
Sid Meier's Civilization VI	0.8 TF2	$1.84 PP	-
Sid Meier's Civilization® V: The Complete Edition	1.9 TF2	$4.15 PP	-
Sid Meiers Civilization IV: The Complete Edition	0.8 TF2	$1.74 PP	-
Siege of Centauri	0.5 TF2	$1.15 PP	-
SimCasino	0.6 TF2	$1.35 PP	-
Skullgirls 2nd Encore	0.9 TF2	$1.97 PP	-
Slap City	1.0 TF2	$2.25 PP	-
Slay the Spire	2.5 TF2	$5.56 PP	-
Sleeping Dogs: Definitive Edition	0.7 TF2	$1.57 PP	-
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Sniper Elite 3	0.5 TF2	$1.14 PP	-
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Hello there.
I, like you (I assume), am looking for a writing partner. Slice of Life, Low Fantasy, and Science Fiction are … as the young kids say … my jam. I do not care for Fandoms, although I do not mind drawing inspiration from them. Original characters only. As far as those themes are concerned, I am okay with them, but prefer not to get lost in them. I am perfectly fine with, and even prefer, fade-to-black.
I have been writing, on my own, since I was 18 (I am in my 30s now), and have been writing collaboratively for the past 5 or 6 years. I honestly can't remember. I use Discord as my writing medium, consider myself literate, and strive for multiple paragraphs per reply. I have a deep love for world-building and hope to create multiple reference boards filled with realistic imagery. I expect my partner to have similar abilities and interests.
If you think you might be interested, please reach out. You can expect the following:

1. Determine compatibility.
2. Debate ideas.
3. Settle on an idea.
4. World build.
5. Write!

While I understand ghosting, but don’t appreciate it, I can understand it much more before it reaches the fifth step. Nothing is more demoralizing than losing a partner several posts into a story. Please know that I am a partner that is more than willing to come back and revisit any one of these steps if something isn't flowing as expected.
I hope to hear from some of you soon!

Hello there.
I, like you (I assume), am looking for a writing partner. Slice of Life, Low Fantasy, and Science Fiction are … as the young kids say … my jam. I do not care for Fandoms, although I do not mind drawing inspiration from them. Original characters only. As far as those themes are concerned, I am okay with them, but prefer not to get lost in them. I am perfectly fine with, and even prefer, fade-to-black.
I have been writing, on my own, since I was 18 (I am in my 30s now), and have been writing collaboratively for the past 5 or 6 years. I honestly can't remember. I use Discord as my writing medium, consider myself literate, and strive for multiple paragraphs per reply. I have a deep love for world-building and hope to create multiple reference boards filled with realistic imagery. I expect my partner to have similar abilities and interests.
If you think you might be interested, please reach out. You can expect the following:

1. Determine compatibility.
2. Debate ideas.
3. Settle on an idea.
4. World build.
5. Write!

While I understand ghosting, but don’t appreciate it, I can understand it much more before it reaches the fifth step. Nothing is more demoralizing than losing a partner several posts into a story. Please know that I am a partner that is more than willing to come back and revisit any one of these steps if something isn't flowing as expected.
I hope to hear from some of you soon!

Something has triggered you and your heart is pounding, your hands are sweating, and your mind is racing with anxiety. Trauma triggers can have a negative impact on your life, but you can lessen it by preparing for them and having a variety of tactics at the ready to manage them.
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You have felt the power of an unexpected memory, such as a familiar scent to take you back to a family vacation when you were a child or the ability of a location to trigger flashbacks of your first kiss. However, for people who have trauma in their life, the unexpected recall of memories can drag a person back into a traumatic situation, potentially evoking a similar physical or emotional reaction as in the past. Understanding how to deal with trauma triggers is a critical component of recovering from trauma.
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After trauma, you experience a powerful emotional and behavioral reaction when you come across a trigger. It feels like you’re going through the ordeal all over again. Triggers, however, can be terrifying, overwhelming, and seem to appear out of nowhere to people who have suffered trauma.
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Trauma is hell on earth. Trauma resolved is a gift from the gods. ~ Peter A. Levine

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What Are Trauma Triggers

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Trauma triggers can be anything that brings back memories of a traumatic event, such as a particular scent, song or sound, or article of clothing. A person's triggers are extremely personal to the survivor. It’s well-recognized that trauma affects your mind in a persistent and repeating manner. For those who experience the aftereffects of trauma, there is hope. You can lead a happy and fulfilling life.
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At some point in their lives, 70% of adults have gone through a traumatic event. Traumatic experiences can include everything from seeing or experiencing war or violence to child abuse or neglect. Doctors will diagnose 20% of those who suffer trauma with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). These triggers cause uneasy emotions or unpleasant memories of the traumatic incident.
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Unfortunately, you can’t avoid trauma triggers. Fortunately, there are actions you can take to figure out what triggers your trauma. To keep living a life that you love after trauma, you can also learn how to manage trauma triggers.
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Because you cannot stop the intrusive thoughts, your emotions change, and you start to react. You might experience helplessness, panic, unease, and emotional overload because of a trigger. As though you were experiencing the tragedy, you might experience the same emotions that you did at the time.

After a traumatic experience, the human system of self-preservation seems to go onto permanent alert, as if the danger might return at any moment. ~ Judith Lewis Herman

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The Trick Of the Ego

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Your ego views trauma triggers as threats, which results in an emotional reaction like dread, panic, or agitation. Consider the response to stimuli as a protective mechanism. Your defenses go up against the perceived threat because of being immediately transported back to the traumatic incident. Despite being infrequent, triggers can cause flashbacks. Depending on the person, the severity of how you react when provoked can vary.
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Your nervous system may need some time to heal and get back to normal after coming into contact with a trigger. This is because trauma shrinks your emotional window of tolerance, the range in which you feel emotionally stable, in control, and at ease. Stressors are more likely to evoke stronger emotional distress when there is a smaller window of tolerance.
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Unlike simple stress, trauma changes your view of your life and yourself. It shatters your most basic assumptions about yourself and your world — “Life is good,” “I’m safe,” “People are kind,” “I can trust others,” “The future is likely to be good” — and replaces them with feelings like “The world is dangerous,” “I can’t win,” “I can’t trust other people,” or “There’s no hope.” ~ Mark Goulston MD.

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What To Do When A Trauma Trigger Occurs

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Trauma recovery can be difficult and requires time. It could seem like the best approach to deal with it is to ignore it or act as though it's not happening. Instead of avoiding your trauma triggers, it’s preferable to identify them and figure out how to deal with them consciously.
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There are actions you can take even if you're unsure of what set you off. To calm and control your nervous system after being emotionally overloaded by a trigger, attempt the following steps:
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• Keep your attention on the present moment.
• Remind yourself that you can overcome this reaction, which is normal following a traumatic occurrence.
• Practice deep breathing techniques to relax your mind and trigger your autotomic nervous system. Inhale to a count of five, hold for a count of five, and exhale to a count of five.
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Instead of saying ‘I’m damaged, I’m broken, I have trust issues.” I say “I’m healing, I’m rediscovering myself, I’m starting over.” ~ Horacio Jones

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Managing Trauma Triggers: A Tool Box

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You can control how you react to triggers over time and with practice, making them less disruptive. Here are six strategies to lessen the effects of a trauma trigger.
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1. Be conscious of what is occurring; when a trigger response begins, name it. Is it produced internally or externally? What is going on within your body? What are you thinking about? How does it make you feel? Writing in a journal enables you to concentrate on the present rather than the past. Many times, after journaling, the brain is better able to control emotions and balance feelings. You benefit from making room for your emotions and feelings. It can damage your ability to trust others after a traumatic event. A flood of words on paper results from taking the time to write about how you’re feeling right now about the past event. When you release your thoughts and emotions onto the page, you open yourself up for lessening your reaction in the future, because those feelings aren’t all stuffed inside you. Writing in a journal offers a secure setting for growth and reflection on the past. You need to feel secure to move along your healing journey.
2. Be mindful. This emphasizes being able to bring your thoughts into the present. Emotional triggers instantly transport you back in time, so being able to reorient yourself and stay in the present is essential for keeping you from experiencing that painful event. This can help you relax both your mind and body by helping you internalize the idea that a trigger is just that—a trigger—and not a brand-new cause of distress.
3. One of the best methods for reducing stress is to concentrate on taking calm, deep breaths through your mouth and nose. Spending a few seconds concentrating on your breathing might help you release tension and stored energy. However, don’t hold your breath during stressful situations, which can make the situation worse. You can create a general sense of awareness throughout your entire body by remaining present and focusing on your breathing.
4. Remember that you’re recovering from a significant psychological injury and that the process will take time and patience. Be kind to yourself. As you go through this, you must love yourself and pay attention to your needs and stress-relieving activities. Set aside as much time as you can for this type of care, especially when you expect to be in a setting that could cause a reaction.
5. Use grounding strategies, such as putting on a soothing song, holding onto a trusted person, inhaling a perfume that reorients and calms you, or touching a specific object, to anchor yourself in the reality and safety of the current moment (something warm, cold, or textured can also help). Consider these techniques to guide your thoughts out of the unexpectedly dark area where it has wandered.
6. Seek support. It’s essential to recover from trauma, like recovering from any significant injury, under the supervision of healthcare specialists and with the help of close family and friends. Talk about your experiences as much as you can with people you trust, and get help from a coach like myself when you need it. Finding your supporters is perhaps one of the most crucial ideas in dealing with trauma triggers. These are the individuals in your life who show you compassion and empathy. Supportive people serve as a reminder that you have a say and a choice. Your tribe encourages you and serves as a constant reminder of your bravery as you face your difficulties head-on. These are the folks that will love you without conditions.

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Trauma creates change you don’t choose. Healing is about creating the change you do choose. ~ Michelle Rosenthal

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Moving Forward On Your Healing Journey

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No one asks to relive a horrific experience that changed your life. Nor did you ask to have these trauma triggers be in control of your life. Not dealing with your past pain harms both your mental and physical health. You can significantly reduce the frequency of the effects of trauma triggers by utilizing these techniques.
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Bad things happen in life, but how you consciously choose to respond to them defines your character and the life you live. You can choose to stay in the darkness and do nothing, or you can rise from the pain and bravely take the next step on your healing journey. Only when you do this, do you give yourself the gift of truly living again.
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When you are triggered and can travel through the pain, alter the pattern of behavior, and reframe the story your ego has been telling, you can arrive at a different conclusion. This is when healing occurs. And instead of feeling ashamed, you can feel proud of what you have overcome. The ego doesn’t understand that surviving is beautiful.
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There is no timestamp on trauma. There isn’t a formula that you can insert yourself into to get from horror to healed. Be patient. Take up space. Let your journey be the balm. ~ Dawn Serra

Hi people of the UK,
Explanation turned out to be a bit long, sorry.
The rent on my room is half that of the average lowest rent for a comparable room in my city. The landlord said he would never raise the rent and has been true to his word despite rents shooting up all over. He's been good with repairs and upgrades. Genuinely nice guy, doesn't come around except to pick up payment, drop off a spare part, talk to tradesmen etc.
Payment is in cash always. Three tenants in the flat, only two on the lease (I'm one of them), no HMO license. The HMO situation is illegal, and obviously the cash payment aspect is there for a reason, but so far I've had no problems with this guy; in fact it's been the opposite, my flatmate has been there for 10+ years and has never had any issues either. The flat is in good nick and the landlord is dilligent with repairs/upgrades. I'm broke/saving for my future career and it would be a real blow to have to leave at this stage.
A new boiler has been installed, my friend, an architect isn't pleased with the pipework for the following reasons:
The gas pipe runs hard-up underneath the floorboards, particularly behind my bedroom door as the room is entered. The floorboards haven't been secured back down and the gap between the boards and pipe is only about 2mm, the loose boards could easily be putting pressure on the pipe, they’re likely to be. The gas pipe runs approx 12-15m unvented. A gas leak could occur at a hard to access junction. The gas pipe isn’t protected. My friend was also banging on about having to check building regulations and had a few other grievances I didn't manage to write down.
He can be over-the-top sometimes by his own admission but I've had my doubts for ages as well, at least about the loose boards in front of the door. I know nothing about plumbing and gas lines etc but common sense says the setup is a risk. I’ve been hopping across that patch for a few months and recently wedged some paper under the skirting board to give the boards a tighter fit. There was also a leak at the gas meter in the bathroom a few months ago, my flatmates smelled it and a guy came out the same day and fixed it, don’t know if he was arranged by the landlord or not. The landlord isn't the installetradesman so I'm not saying he knows about these issues, he's probably none the wiser himself.
In terms of a CP12, there’s been no check that I know of since the installation of the boiler and I don’t know if the landlord has been diligent with yearly checks in the past. A gas safety check may have taken place at the time of installation, especially since things should've been installed by a gas-safe engineer anyway. I want a CP12 check because I assume that would verify the issues mentioned and/or other issues, and verify their adequate repair as being the landlord’s legal responsibility (CP12 is legally mandated anyway it’s not a frivolous thing).
I’m worried that if I point out various issues to the landlord without mentioning a CP12 check, he could just send a handyman mate over to do some quick fix which might still leave the flat unsafe and then I'd have to push for a CP12 anyway. Or possibly if he did produce a CP12, I'd be compelled to question it, based on what, my own suspicion, my mate's advice? Which is why I like the idea of getting my own gas-safe check done if that's possible as a tenant (cost isn't that bad).
If I ‘remind’ the landlord to get a CP12 or get my own check done and go to the landlord with the results (assuming that's possible as a tenant and the suspected issues are verified), is there a chance the landlord could get done for not having proper gas safety records? Could HMO stuff be relevant to the CP12 check etc?
Will the engineer just show up, do the job, point out the issues and mandatory fixes (assuming my friend is correct) and leave? Or could there be a can of worms that will fuck up the 'delicate' living situation if I’m not careful? Any advice? Is there another approach I'm missing?
Thanks.

Hi friends! I submitted a diary in February 2021 that you can find here! Since then we’ve sold one house, started higher-paying jobs, moved states to be closer to family, rented a kind of busted house, bought another charming fixer-upper of a house, and given in fully to lifestyle creep, especially when it comes to plants and gardens.
❤️ Section 1: Assets and Debt
Total Net Worth: $108,763 if you believe the equity calculator I reference below. Negative tens of thousands if you think the housing market is about to crash or even just reset!
Retirement Balance: $10,000 for me, split just about evenly between a Roth and a 401k; $25,500 for my husband, L. This will make more sense when you get to the “income progression” section, and after you accompany me as I spend money like I have money to spend, every day.
Savings Account Balance: $17,000 split between an “upcoming house repairs & dental fund.” The first $7k is spoken for already between a big chimney repair ($3k) and an expensive upcoming dental appointment for L ($4k), both in April. The remaining $10k we don’t touch – it’s for an emergency fund.
Checking Account Balance: About $1200. I try to keep this pretty low to discourage my own spending, which works only sometimes.
Credit Card Debt: $12,100 left from our home renovations and move last October. We got two 0% APR cards to finance this, and will pay both off before the APR jumps at the end of this year.
Student Loan Debt: $80,000 for L’s undergrad and MAT. $18,000 for my undergrad and (unfinished, womp womp) MAT. We aren’t paying on this til we have to, and are hoping it will be forgiven – mine via Biden, since I was a Pell Grant recipient, and L’s via PSLF.
Equity: $145,000. This number is from an online equity calculator, and is for our century-old house in a very walkable neighborhood in a popular Southern city, but who knows whether it’s real or not. Numbers that are real: We paid $575,000 for the home last fall, including a 20% down payment that my dad split evenly with us – his portion from his recent inheritance, our portion from the sale of our previous home.
When we started looking in 2021, our “stretch budget” was $450k, but the housing market exploded and it seemed like overnight the base budget for kind of place we were looking for was more like $650k (I’m committed to city living, and we wanted to make sure there was enough space for my sister, J, and her boyfriend to continue living with us, given the skyrocketing rent prices). We bit the bullet on this place after my dad offered to pay for half the down payment. That gift helped us avoid PMI, so that the rent we were paying for a worse place was comparable to the monthly payment on this one. We spent the remaining $15,000 from our previous home sale buying down the rate and on moving costs, repairs, furnishing, gardens, appliances, etc, and then still took out about $12,000 more in credit card debt to renovate the bathrooms and make a few other upgrades.
❤️ Section 2: Income
Monthly Take Home: My base pay is $125,000, and L’s is $55,000. We bring in about $11,400 a month after taxes. The whole family’s health insurance is paid in full by my work, and our pre-tax retirement contribution details are below.
Income Progression: I’ve been working since I was 15 years old, moved out at 18, and paid my own bills starting that year, but income below starts the year I graduated college.
Year 1: $15,000 (part time ABA therapist, full time baby anarchist)
Years 2-8: $28,000 (This is a rough average of my income across these years. I accepted a spot in Teach for America right out of college in order to have a salary, despite my maximalist politics at the time, and kept working with young people for years after my TFA service ended. I paid for L’s expenses in college and supported a few other family members off and on while I taught. When I took a big pay cut to do youth organizing work for a couple years, L’s teacher salary helped support us).
Year 9: $45,000 (got a full-time nonprofit fundraising job, quit teaching)
Year 10: $55,000 (got a raise)
Year 11: $65,000 (got a raise and promotion)
Year 12: $75,000 (was promoted again, realized I was still underpaid)
Year 13: $98,000 (was hired by my current employer)
Year 14: $125,000 (was promoted!)
❤️ Section 3: Expenses
Mortgage, Taxes, & Insurance: About $3,000. My sister and her boyfriend currently live with us and contribute $600 of this total payment each month, but we budget as if we pay the full mortgage ourselves.
Investment Contribution: L’s retirement is pulled out of his check before he receives it: it’s $289 a month. I put $170 into my 401k, directly out of my check. I also contribute $100 to a Roth IRA through Acorns each month. Through Acorns we also have a UTMA/UGMA account for B which gets $100 a month, and we put $40 a month into a taxable brokerage account.
Savings Contribution: We tally an extra $1.5k-$3k a month beyond expenses, and are expecting $6k back from our tax return this year. But we aren’t prioritizing savings right now, and instead are: 1. cashflowing L’s timely dental work (found out in the course of this diary that we’re looking at about $11k this year); 2. paying down the debt on our credit cards ($12k, see above); and 3. cashflowing a few must-do house projects (estimating about $8k for those).
Debt Payments: See above! As I mentioned, we have student loan debt to the tune of $100k but aren’t paying right now. I actually paid my loans down by $10k during COVID with money from our first house sale. But I panicked when Biden said he was going to forgive loans and got my full payment during the pandemic – all $10k – reversed. That money is now our emergency savings account.
Electric/Gas: $150ish, varies significantly. We installed a high-efficiency wood stove when we moved in, which cuts down on the cost of our old furnace a bit.
Internet: $80
Water: $75
Cellphone: $100, for L & I both
Subscriptions: $10 Spotify; $10 Youtube music; $2.99 Apple data; $22 NYT, for newspaper and cooking app; $5 for Acorns. I also pay yearly: $40 for the Freedom app, $20 for Hobnob, and $60 for Insight Timer.
Car Payment and Insurance: $200 for insurance. This covers both of our used cars and my dad’s used handicap van. We paid off our 2012 Honda Fit when we sold our last house, and recently paid cash for a Honda CRV with 180k miles which we use for family trips.
Medical/Therapy: $0. My therapist is $181 a session, and I see her twice a month – but this is covered by my job’s MERP card. I also get an inhaler at least twice a month - that’s reimbursed too, but would cost $60 otherwise.
Pet Expenses: Our precious pittie suffered some injuries before we adopted her. She’s on Gabapentin daily for pain management which is about $60 a month.
CSA: $40/week minimum – this is a special CSA service that has all kinds of tempting goodies, so I usually spend more.
Coworking space: $150. I expense $100 of this to work.
Gym memberships: $75 for a family Y membership, and $120 for my spin studio; I also buy 10-packs to the yoga studio down the street every few months, which are $120 a pop**.**
Donations: Varies. We give $10 monthly to our local Democratic Socialists of America and $10 monthly to the Working Families Party. We give one-off donations when asked or when we come across a need, usually $50-$100 at a time. Once we have less immediate debt, I plan to up our recurring gifts.
Childcare: $600. B goes to the best public preschool in the land – he was on the waiting list for 18 months. We previously paid double this for a subpar Montessori school run out of a church basement. Often babysitting is an extra $100 or so a month.
Kids’ Activities: $120 every three months or so – think swim lessons, toddler soccer, etc.
Outdoorsy memberships: $110 yearly for memberships to nonprofit parks, botanical gardens, etc etc. These are not too expensive and a fun way to spend a day with little ones.
House cleaner: $320. They come twice a month and charge $160 each time. This is some of the best money I spend each month.
Nuuly: $94. This has been a gamechanger for work travel.
❤️ Section 4: Money Diary
✨DAY 1: TUESDAY✨
5:00 am: I wake up wheezing with two pudgy legs draped right across my chest. My three-year-old, B, gave me a cold that I’ve just recovered from, but my asthma is still a bit aggrieved. I disentangle myself from B and head downstairs to make a french press and get some work in before everyone’s up.
6:30 am: B comes running downstairs, naked and boisterous as ever. I spare a thought for my little sister, J, and her boyfriend, who share a wall with him. J and her boyfriend have been living with us since the deep pandemic when we all moved together, which has been a blessing for us. But the early mornings and constant circulating upper respiratory infections are doing them in, and they’re moving to a nearby apartment in May. This very basic one-bedroom will double their monthly rent D: And, since J is finishing up school right now and doesn’t have a steady income, L and I had to cosign their lease in order for them to even qualify for the place. Big sigh on housing across America right now.
7:15 am: B and L head out, and I get dressed and do a little more work. At 8:30, I head to my first-ever dermatologist appointment. My mom recently treated me to a mothedaughter facial where I learned that the creeping redness on my nose is likely hereditary rosacea! The facialist suggested I make an appointment with a dermatologist after I informed her that my skincare routine has to date involved only a wet rag and a heavy moisturizer.
The dermatologist suggests a gentle papaya cleanser; a phyto vitamin c serum; a rosacea triple cream; and a moisturizing sunscreen. The cost for the appointment itself ($150) is covered by my MERP card from work**,** but I pay for the cleanser, serum, and sunscreen from his office ($141) and the rosacea triple cream from an online pharmacy ($49) out of pocket. Thus begins my first-ever skincare routine. Sadly, the dermatologist’s proprietary packaging is ugly, so if you use something similar but cute, please share a link.
10:00 am: I’ve walked the dog, made another cup of coffee, turned on Freedom, and am settling into my laptop for a day of toggling between Google Docs and Zoom rooms.
12:30 pm: M barks rancorously as I’m wrapping up a Zoom call. The Tubies I ordered last week for me (and B) were delivered. It’s SPRING and we are about to eat SMOOTHIE POPS, everybody. It’s also time for lunch, so I heat up this very yummy soup (we subbed veggie sausage and it worked well) and toast a piece of focaccia. I read “I Went On A Package Trip for Lonely Millennials” while I eat. It is every bit as unsettling as it sounds.
1:40 pm: L calls — B has had diarrhea at school and needs to come home. B’s preschool is in the public school where L teaches, which means L handles all pick up and drop off, but my work schedule is much more flexible than L’s so I often do early pickups like this one. I shift my afternoon meetings, notify my direct reports that I’m signing out early, and stop for gas on the way to pick up poor little B. ($40)
4:30 pm: B and I spent the afternoon doing quiet things together – he took a bath, played with toys, and watched some PBS Kids, and I took a few minutes to tie up some loose ends at work. When L gets home at 4:30, we set up the sprinkler on our tiny front “lawn” (currently actually a patch of very-tilled dirt), where we recently seeded low-growing wildflowers.
6:00 pm: I want to drink wine with L while we make veggie fried rice for dinner, but think better of it given that I just got over a cold. L offers to make me a hot toddy (yesssss) but then realizes we’re out of lemons. He and B head to the grocery store around the corner while I finish up dinner. They get lemons, a lime, and a giant bag of lollipops for L’s students. ($11) The hot toddy is delicious.
9:00 pm: B’s bedtime routine is a wrap and my new skincare routine is complete – turns out my face does feel cleaner after a cleanser! I take a nebulizer treatment and read my favorite book that has completely transformed my life, Overcoming Unwanted Intrusive Thoughts: A CBT-Based Guide to Getting Over Frightening, Obsessive, or Disturbing Thoughts, until we turn out the lights. Goodnight!
🌿 DAILY TOTAL: $241
✨ DAY 2: WEDNESDAY✨
5:00 am: I wake up wheezing deeply again. I head downstairs to eat a cold banana and take a prednisone left over from the last time my asthma was aggravated by a cold. I decide to sit for a little Sarah Blondin meditation by the woodstove before I start my early-morning work block. Lesson 8 in this course is my go-to, and is alone worth every bit of the yearly Insight Timer fee.
7:00 am: B and L are awake, but B is staying home from school today so things are a bit slower. I make a mango smoothie for B and then add kale and protein powder for L and I. At 7:45 I don my favorite lilac workout onesie (I have it in black too) and head to my spin class.
9:00 am: I am but one month into spin classes and totally enamored. The dark room and loud music extremely do it for me. After class I stop at the coffee shop next door and buy a big drip coffee to split with L, a sticky bun for L and B to share, and a bag of coffee beans cause we are almost out at home. ($28)
9:30 am: Take a quick post-spin shower while I listen to Iris Dement’s new album, which serves the sound I grew up on and a very earnest progressivism that reminds me of my parents and their sweet Boomer friends who care deeply about abortion access and post anti-racist memes on Facebook. I cover my body in Warm Feelings, spritz on Winter (the best), wriggle into some cheetah-print overalls, and head down to work until L leaves in about an hour and a half.
12:00 pm: My meeting with my boss ran over so L had to leave for work while I was mid-call. I extricate B from Disney+ (we use J’s login) and receive only a moderate tantrum in response. After some breaths, B lays on his blue rug and pretends he’s eating his lunch (a mango pop, grilled cheese, & berries) in the shallow end of a swimming pool. Pre-nap, we read Gabito, a recent fave, and B’s eyes flutter closed during the last few pages. Back to work!
3:30 pm: B comes running into my office but I need to wrap up an important task, so we listen to superhero stories together while I tappity tap. It’s raining out, and L isn’t due home til 6p, so I make a gametime decision to spend the afternoon doing one fun inside thing for me (pick out berry bushes for our garden!) and one fun thing inside thing for B (ride rides inside the mall near the garden center!). B and I gather $2.50 in quarters for his rides, and he dons his Ironman costume and rainboots for the occasion.
At the garden center, we pick out two triple crown blackberry bushes, two chandler blueberry bushes, one heritage everbearing raspberry bush, and, after a quick phone consultation with L, one black tartarian cherry tree. L loves cherries and is very excited to use them in his cocktail-making. We also pick up a galvanized steel watering can since my old thrifted one keeps leaking all over the floor when I water my inside plants. The total is $253. Because I am very excited about this purchase and it’s for our house, it counts as free in my heart.
4:30 pm: B and I are the only nerds in the mall wearing KN95s and clutching quarters in our fists. So far B has purchased a ride on a train ($1) and some tiny banana candies ($.50). He settles on a very exciting race car for his final four quarters – but the greedy car eats his money!!! ($1) We are both very sad, and start searching for a ride that might take a debit card. Then, suddenly, to our left, appears a LEGO STORE. B dashes in and we find that you can build your own tiny Lego person. He happily obliges and I spend $5 on a three-inch-tall Lego man with a spider face and a big helmet.
6:30 pm: Back at home, L and I discuss our most exciting news of the week – L’s youngest sister and her partner arrive at their new apartment in our city TONIGHT! They’ve been living several states away for years. L’s whole family lives in the area and we are all thrilled these two are coming back home. L, B, and I plan to help them unpack tomorrow, and I think we should take them a gift. L heads out to the bottle store down the street to buy two bottles of Morphos (one for us!) ($52), and then goes to the grocery store to buy White Claws and some pull-ups for B. ($25) We could save more money but life is for living.
Dinner is leftover fried rice, and B doesn’t fall asleep til 9. L and I take our favorite CBD gummies before bed and I read the “soft fruits” section of Down to Earth to prepare for our big planting this weekend.
🌿 DAILY TOTAL: $365.50
✨ DAY 3: THURSDAY✨
6:00 am: I wake up late today – I had trouble sleeping because I couldn’t breathe all night. I make my favorite smoothie for breakfast (which is something like this but incorporates protein powder and frozen kale and cayenne), L eats oatmeal, and B eats two mango smoothie pops plus a cereal bar. They leave around 7:15 am and I get myself together to walk the dog before heading to my coworking space for the day.
8:30 am: I pack up my stuff and ride my bike to my pretty coworking space. The sun is out! It’s spring! The trees are blooming! Everyone is glad.
1:45 pm: I heat up fried rice and drink some of the on-tap kombucha. While I eat, I read Today in Tabs and consider adding it to my monthly expenses so that I can read it more. Our cleaner texts that they’re done at the house, and I Venmo her $160 (included in monthly expenses).
3:10 pm: I decide to bike home before the final Zoom call of the day. I cannot stress enough how glorious it is outside. It’s also glorious inside, thanks to our fabulous cleaner.
Post-call, I make some smol avocado toasts and L calls to say his sibling is not in fact up for a visit tonight – they are whelmed by boxes. We pivot: bike ride to the playground! While at the playground, B is the first kid to hear the ICE CREAM TRUCK approach. Chaos ensues and we spend $5 on one scoop of cookie dough ice cream.
7:00 pm: For dinner we make mini pizzas on TJ’s cauliflower crust. I also make asparagus with a delicious flaked salt left by my bestie the last time they stayed over, and the result is pretty enough to text to them. L makes us gin fizzes with strawberries and with mint from the garden. 🌱
8:00 pm: Teeth brushing is always a slog with B, but on this night I am visited by a stroke of genius. Tonight, I explain to him that the tooth fairy has been hired for a residency at our place and is listening in while he brushes his teeth and uses the potty. If he does a good job, she’ll leave him a coin somewhere in his bedroom. L overhears and makes tooth fairy sounds (think tinkling giggles) from the hallway – B is delighted and brushes his teeth with aplomb. This is a big win! While he uses the potty, I steal away and hide a quarter under the toe of his stuffed Spiderman. He requests tooth fairy bedtime stories and falls asleep listening. ($.25)
🌿 DAILY TOTAL: $5.25
✨ DAY 4: FRIDAY✨
6:00 am: Another late wakeup for me. I have a spin class at 8 and a packed workday, so I make my favorite smoothie again and walk M while it’s still dark out. Afterwards, I help B with his teeth brushing/potty routine, and it continues to be so much smoother than ever before thanks to our friend the tooth fairy. This time, L stashes a dime under B’s stuffed bear. B proudly puts the dime and last night’s quarter in his coat pocket and, as I buckle him into his car seat, announces he is NOT sharing his money with his teacher today. I suppose the discussion about whether money should be treated as a public good or a personal asset can come later. On the way to school, L stops for gas. ($25 for gas, $.10 for the tooth fairy)
8:00 am: I arrive at the spin studio and learn that the teacher I expected overslept. His sub unfortunately leaves half the lights on and plays lots of Eminem. I survive the weird vibes and head home for a quick shower before work – no coffee shop stop this time! I am a disciplined and frugal Recessionist millennial.
10:15 am: Our CSA is delivered! It includes spinach, heirloom tomatoes (!! new this week!), apples, lacinato kale, meyer lemons, limes, oyster mushrooms, shiitake mushrooms, red onions, shishito peppers, and mixed cherry tomatoes, plus a delivery charge, for $63, $23 more than the monthly minimum I included in set expenses. I fetch it from the sunny porch and am reminded that urgently want a pair of white platform Birkenstocks for spring. I find a pair in my size in EUC on Poshmark and buy them now: $60 with shipping, a steal compared to $110 new!
1:00 pm: My delightful neighbor and I take lunch together! We walk to a nearby eatery where I get a tempeh reuben and diet soda (my vice), $18 including tip. Over lunch we discuss parenting, gardening, her upcoming major home renovation, and how squirrels can sometimes relocate crocus bulbs. Meanwhile, B and L have early release at school so they head to a kid’s play place as a special treat to B. ($23 with snacks)
3:30 pm: B is home early but, curses, I still have much work to do! He and L chill while I tappity tap for a while longer. I eventually wrap up, but will have to do more work over the weekend.
L wants to work in his shop for a while, so B and I take the bike to the playground. He is a very good friend at the playground, running around happily with a couple of 7-year-olds he’s never met and then, when they leave, chatting amicably with an 18-month-old and his parents. He periodically begs me to let him take his pants off so he can better pretend he’s in the pool. The answer is no, but he is shirtless, shoeless, and covered in “tattoos” (washable marker), and I think that’s a pretty good compromise.
7:00 pm: Back home, L is making dinner (avocado tacos!), and I announce to him that we need a few more spring items: new (unscratched) oversize sunglasses and a beaded eyeglass chain for me, and little kid Tevas for B. I use my dad’s Amaz*n to buy the glasses and chain for me ($20) and three pairs of Tevas for B to try on. They’ll only charge us for the ones we keep, which will be $21.
L and I spend the evening drinking the Morphos he bought earlier this week and hanging out with J and her boyfriend. We turn on the AC for the first time which reminds us that we need to get an HVAC repairperson out here to check out some weird details of the old AC system our inspector caught. I mentally add it to my to-dos for the week.
We get B in bed late again – around 9 – and we watch Schitt’s Creek til almost 11. We will never tire of re-watching this show.
🌿 DAILY TOTAL: $185.10
✨ DAY 5: SATURDAY✨
6:45 am: I wake up breathing easy today! Blessings, prednisone; blessings, springtime.
8:00 am: L and I make eggie toasts with heirloom tomatoes, and L reveals that he had a long-awaited budget chat with the medical hospital where he’s been getting dental work done. They’re estimating we’ll need to spend an additional $11k this year to get L’s teeth in order. This kicks off a Big Conversation, during which we realize we absolutely need to be spending less than $8k monthly in order to cash flow his teeth, cash flow our must-do house projects, and pay down our cards by end of year. This should be doable, in theory, but will be a big adjustment as for months we’ve been splashing out on everything from gifts to travel to furniture to tools to fabric to support my baby-clothes-making hobby. As the conversation drags on, tension rises, and we’re both mad at each other but not sure why.
After a few breaths, I realize: we are just launching big numbers back and forth across the room, completely unmoored! I offer to make us a big fancy draft annual budget with monthly projections and schedule a date night to review. HOW FUN! L obliges after I convince him that I actually, truly, want to do this, and I find a very nice budget template on Etsy. ($20)
10 am: I run down a hill and across a parking lot to yoga, and slip in some vom along the way. Meanwhile, L and B head to the gym together.
12 pm: I take our e-bike (the one we’ve been riding around all week) to the shop and tell the bike guy that the lights and the breaks are in rough shape. He tells me they’ll fix it up, but that we should consider replacing it with a Yuba Spicy Curry which is $5200. I think not, but in my heart, I do really want to sell this one and buy a RadWagon or a Blix Packa Genie. Ebike moms and dolls, send thoughts.
When I get home, L heads to Aldi and spends $125 on berries, lots of bananas, eggs, rice, oat milk, oatmeal, snacks for B, frozen berries, fresh broccoli, yogurt, and a bunch of other stuff including Aldi swag that he is very stoked about: a matching pullover, socks, and tumbler. He then goes to Ace Hardware and buys s’mores sticks for use with our fire pit and some light bulbs ($37). B takes a nap and I plant the berry bushes and cherry tree while he snoozes!
6 pm: We head out to dinner to celebrate the big move with L’s sister and her boyfriend. It’s a long walk to our favorite taco place, but a beautiful day. B rides his pink scooter and is very cute, but reader, he is a spirited child and today he is having A Day. We field multiple meltdowns and lots of not-listening on the way to the restaurant. Dinner itself is delicious, though, and we watch the sun set over the water as we eat. It’s $58 with tip for the three of us, including a coconut margarita for L and a watermelon sangria for me.
🌿 DAILY TOTAL: $240
✨ DAY 6: SUNDAY✨
5 am: Up and thinking about parenting. L and I had a long conversation after B fell asleep about what we could do differently to help him manage his emotions. He’s a big child in size and in personality – at 3 he’s wearing size 6 clothes and talking as much as any child that age too. He has big joy, big wonder, big imagination, and also big anger and big sadnesses. We’ve tried to follow Janet Lansbury’s teaching since B was born, but at times gentle parenting, which Janet teaches, has seemed too lax for B. I decide to return to her work anyway. I read the transcript to her newest podcast episode, and wonder if maybe we’re overengaging with B’s big feelings. Then I read this one about another child struggling with aggression, and am glad that B is at least not spitting, I guess?
10 am: B’s morning is going great after all, and we decide to pack a lunch and head out for a hike. B makes himself a ham, cheese, and hummus sandwich, and I make L and I veggie sandwiches with pesto. We happen upon a plant sale on the way home and L approves a “Fuzzy Mystery” peperomia for our bathroom. ($8) Afterwards we drop off my Nuuly at UPS (prepaid!) and head home to watch a movie while it rains. I do work things and start our new annual budget spreadsheet during the movie.
5 pm: J takes a walk with us and M the dog to a playground nearby, and while we’re out, our neighbor texts to suggest once-a-week family dinners on Tuesday (yes please!). For dinner tonight, I make Smitten Kitchen’s tomato sauce with onion and butter using the heirloom tomatoes from our CSA and it’s very good as always. L and I drink some Pinot with dinner, and B eats his spaghetti with his hands.
9 pm: My anxiety (her name is Esther) visits while I’m putting B to sleep, so after he’s down, I decide to get to the bottom of a few things via Google. As usual, this is a bad idea! I walk to bed crying and lay on L’s chest. I cry a lot more, including about the trailer for You Hurt My Feelings which I saw three days ago, and about how scary it would be if L were to die, and about how L’s parents’ best friends’ lives have never been visited by tragedy and is that possible for us too?
Therapy is on Tuesday, everyone! We will make it.
🌿 DAILY TOTAL: $8
✨ DAY 7: MONDAY✨
6:30 am: I wake up later than I wanted to after a fitful night. B was coughing a lot (post-nasal drip, ick), and I was thinking a lot. I have back-to-back calls today with lots of prep beforehand so I get dressed quick and grab a pre-made smoothie from the freezer for breakfast. B and L leave at 7:15; I light my Gardener candle and tuck in to work.
1:00 pm: Lunch is fried rice with a chonk of a Trader Joe’s milk chocolate hazelnut bar, yum. I eat on a call but politely turn off my camera.
4:00 pm: B and L are home and I’m still wrapping up. On the way home, they picked up some natural honey cough syrup stuff for B ($12).
6:00 pm: L and I drop B off at the Y childcare, and find out they are hosting a spring break camp for 3-5 year olds. L wants to build B’s long-awaited tree house over the break, so we sign B up for four days of camp. Very cute! And also less than half the price of other camps in the area. ($100)
6:15 pm: I check the NYT as I start up the elliptical and am sent reeling by news of the school shooting in Nashville. I try to distract myself with The Crown. Unfortunately, Princess Di is really going through it, so the distraction is a bust. I turn on Sarah Blondin’s Learning to Surrender meditation instead, and listen to it twice. I’m trying desperately to trust the universe but the hellscapeness of it all makes that difficult sometimes.
Life marches on anyhow: After our workout, we head to Trader Joe’s to buy the items Aldi didn’t offer over the weekend (fancy bag salad, plantain chips, challah, frozen greens, a Galia melon, a few other things), plus a lot more broccoli because we need it for the tofu and veggies we’re making with the neighbors tomorrow. I love this peanut butter tofu recipe, in case you’re looking for one. ($31)
8 pm: We three look at videos of baby B over dinner, and L says maybe he is ready for a second. I think I am too.
adrienne maree brown posted today,
put your attention on suffering – which is constant and everywhere – and it is all you will see. joy will come, and laughter, but you will find it brief, possibly a distraction.
put your attention on joy, being connected and feeling whole, and you will find it everywhere. your heart will still break. you will know grief. but you will find it a reasonable cost for the random abundance of miracles, and the soft wild rhythms of love.
return to love as many times as you can.
🌿 DAILY TOTAL: $143
❤️ Section 5: TOTALS
Total Expenses: $1228.85
Food & Drink: $376
Fun & Entertainment: $130.85
Home & Health: $557
Clothes & Beauty: $101
Transport: $64
❤️ Section 6: REFLECTION
This week was spendy for us between the plants and the skincare routine – but I’d say we usually have at least one week a month where we spend like this. I know that needs to shift if we’re going to pay for all the things we need to pay for this year without drawing from our life savings. I’m also aware that N’s student loan payments will likely resume, and that having a second baby isn’t cheap – so I’m excited to finish our budget spreadsheet and treat it like a goal rather than a suggestion (I currently track our spending obsessively in Mint but treat the budget limits like unsolicited advice).
I do like everything we spent money on this week, though, and feel very lucky to be able to cover so many wants and needs in a given week. Thanks for reading!

Imagine a paragraph that does not have full stops or breaks. It will simply look unreadable and complex without a satisfying understanding, making the audience put effort into understanding it. White Space is catching the attention of designers after the trending UI/UX design in websites and mobile apps, demanded by users.
Negative or White space plays a similar role in UI/UX design. They act as an empty space between the elements used in the design. Else, the designs will look unorganized and messy.

A formal definition of white space

White space/negative space/empty space are the spaces between elements like layouts, content, and graphics used in the design. Empty backgrounds or white spaces can be white or any color pattern, not necessarily white. Designers have been re-focusing on this technique because it improves the creativity and organization of content, making it easier to concentrate on the important elements on the web page or application.

Different White space types

Leaving empty spaces in between all the elements is not white spacing. Designers have to be creative and think from users’ perspectives to provide efficient white spacing in their elements. Below are some of the types of white spaces used widely by the developers.

Macro white space

As the name suggests, this type of white space is a large empty space used to prevent users from getting distracted by the empty content of websites or apps. The name uses macro because they are very large white spaces providing a calming effect to a web page. On websites, the spaces are white in color to provide an organized and cleaner look for the users.

Micro white space

Now you have read about macro white space and can easily understand micro white spaces. The micro spaces are small white spaces between lines, paragraphs, headings, frames, and other elements providing a neat look to the content. Micro white spaces act as a separator between the same and close elements.

Why does white space matter?

Now we know what White Space is and what is micro and macro White Space. We can look at the main question. Below are a few benefits that prove “why white space matters?”

Directs user where to focus

We have many websites with lots of content floating all over the internet. Imagine there was no google, and websites were listed just in a list. Users will not search websites because they won’t know where to focus. With the white spaces in UI/UX design, users leave the empty spaces and focus only on the important elements.

Enhanced writing pieces

What if we say that white spaces make your content smooth. Not smooth in the scroll or features but smooth in reading and feeling. It improves the alignment with margins and enhances the writing pieces or comprehensions.

Boosting retention rate

When users find extremely well-organized web pages and applications, they are more likely to easily get the idea behind it. Once they understand the motive of businesses, they are more likely to retain on your platforms, increasing your overall retention rate. Hence, white spaces increase the retention rate for the business.

Provides better imagination

When users can process the information shown to them on the platforms, they can put it into a better imagination. It is always good to plan white spaces so that they look invested in the overall design creating a great first impression.

Wrapping up

UI/UX design is vital for applications because users are demanding more illustrations and appealing designs. White space plays a beneficial role in keeping the content organized. It improves users’ impression and retention rates, letting them imagine and grasp the content in a better manner. Since there are no limitations to ideas, entrepreneurs are always looking for planned whitespaces, and few app development companies put user experience at the forefront with planned whitespaces.

Do you believe in Right person, wrong time?
I (F 20) met this guy (M 20) at orientation before I even decided to study here. He messaged me during the first weeks of classes, and we decide to grab lunch. Although things moved quickly, they felt so fiery and passionate. I’ve never met anyone like him before. We are both virgins and decided that not having sex was probably best. (More of his idea. Always made sure I was at a good mental space) I seem more sexual than he is. I def bring out a different side of him, if you know what I mean. He wants to come over and watch movies/play games instead of physical stuff. He cooks, is extremely neat/tidy, romantic, and so fineeee but still very young-minded.
He is a Scorpio and can be pretty serious at times. He said he had feelings for me, loved hanging out with me (I’m a Leo), and loved what we had going on. “Casually dating exclusively” is what he called it. I wanted more. I expressed this to him, and he said, he is just trying to put his all into school and his studies right now. He said, “I fear I won’t be able to give you the time and energy you deserve.” He even told me he would probably be ready in 2 years after getting into grad school. (He is a very focused guy; he practices many hours weekly. It’s a bit chaotic for him) A relationship would be “too much” for him. He is a very structured person, and I can sense he’s not too big on change. He might have OCD. I’m no doctor, and he hasn’t been diagnosed.
I ended the situation, and we decided to be friends. (We haven’t hung out yet) I can tell he was hurt. He told me…” it feels like the right person, wrong time.” Part of me wants to believe that we will find a way to make things work later. Part of me regrets ending things because I miss him sooo much. I’ve tried dating, but everything makes me think of him :(. I feel awful for not sticking with him but would feel worst pressuring him into giving me more of his time or falling deeper.
Should I reach back out to try and hang out? Maybe we could just be friends without anything sexual because that affected me emotionally. It’s only been a couple of months.
Can a guy genuinely have feelings and not want a relationship?